Talk about the heart | Pure heart let me find myself back

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I do n’t know if it is the reason why middle age is gradually or the cause of empty nests. Now myself lost interest in many things, and I feel that I have no motivation to do anything. Friends say this is a very obvious manifestation of aging. I can't help but boo -I don't want to grow old.

Before I thought, how fulfilling my life was, the unit, home, childcare, writing, reading, photography, fitness ... every day every day was detailed, and one person could top two people. At that time, I had never had a mourning mood, and never deliberately looked for the motivation to live a positive life. The reality of life was to promote the motivation to move forward. Every day, when you go to work, send a baby before going to work, you have to eat for a baby, and you need to buy it when you eat ... a string of chain reactions is like a tide, and there is no wave of waves. At the same time, I always want to learn something. I am busy with time every day, and stay up late and get up late to make myself a "slash housewife" and actively pursue their hobbies. And when I go to bed, I have to reflect on my content of the day. I have no coordinated arrangements to see what things can be squeezed.

In short, busy pushing me forward, my brain is full, full of time.

But now, I am idle, I am not busy with my work, my child is off, my parents have no burden ... To say that there is enough time to improve the quality of life, to do what I like, but the reality is getting more and less unwilling to move. I started to analyze the reasons for changes in the state.

When people reach middle age, it seems to be a very consistent answer. However, this explanation is mixed with ingredients to deceive myself, because I find that my slackness and laziness are like Domino, and one will start to fall. It's time to let go, and what should not be put down. Hobbies are not pursuing, and housework is too lazy to do it, and even rice does not want to cook. In the end, even watching mobile phones and brushing dramas can not bear it. Every day, I was lying on the sofa in a daze, and I started to worry about my "rotting" state.

Therefore, it is definitely not to be bleak, but to be free. Like the shoes that are not worn for many days, take it out again, and the bottom will fall.

I started to open my former electronic album. There were a lot of messengers in my previously hid. I want to start with my hobbies and find a little motivation. In the photo album, there is a breakfast record for punching in two food platforms from 2016 to 2019. At that time, I did it with my heart every day, took my heart, and paired with the text; with my 2018, I insisted on riding on the road to get off work, and I took a lot of literary photos. In 2020, I wrote a long -term novel punch card on a platform. screenshot……

I was proud of myself at the time, and then intended to re -act: fitness, cooking, reading, writing ... I could do it at first, but after persisting for less than two weeks, I was slack again. My inner driving force has disappeared for too long, is this aging like this?

In such a soul torture, I suddenly had a leisure time at home, and I had to start accepting "purity".

In this forced cleanliness, I slowly saw myself and began to look at the journey of my heart. Subsequently, my heart that I was abandoned for a long time suddenly became translucent, and I had a little perception. At the same time, feelings give me the desire to talk with a pen.

In this way, every day a day, I start to write as I like to write as before, and then I am also interested in other things.

In this way, a sudden purity made me find the medicine. Of course, with the increase of age, a deeper and sober understanding of life lets me know that it is impossible for me to return to when I was young. But no matter what, I was not so lost, and the water of life flowed again, with Ding Dong Ding Dong music.

So I finally understood that the busy and busyness of myself was the driving force for moving forward. And now my middle -aged self, the cleanliness of my heart is the nutrition that keeps myself energetic. You must have different needs in different ages. Finding the rhythm that suits you can play a pleasant voice of life.

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Edit: Qin Xiaoyi

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