After 14 years in a row, he abandoned the Shanghai Jiaotong University, and Tang Shangzheng, the "college entrance examination household", was ready to fight the last year next year.

Jimu Journalist Xiao Mingyuan Li Yang

After getting a notice from the nursing major of the Shanghai Jiaotong University School of Medicine, Tang Shangzheng's heart was pleased. "This is a good school," he said.

However, this is not the profession he wants. After getting the notice, he called whether he could communicate with the teacher of Shanghai Jiaotong University to transfer his professionalism. After getting a negative answer, he was happy to stop.

Tang Shangzheng remembered that when he stepped into the tuition class again last year, he told his family that "this was the last time I took the college entrance examination." After a long tangled, he had to say anything.

In 2022, the 34 -year -old Guangxi man Tang Shangjun took the 14th time to participate in the college entrance examination. He admitted to a famous university like Shanghai Jiaotong University and gave up admission, which caused attention and doubts on the Internet. Some netizens said that he was a "college entrance examination household"; some people thought that his motivation for the college entrance examination was not pure, and he was a professional candidate who re -read the bonus; some people criticized him that he was abandoned after being admitted every year and wasted a valuable place for local students.

Tang Shangzhang didn't care about this. In September, he contacted the tuition school and was ready to set off on the journey of the 15th college entrance examination. "This year should be the last year," he said.

Looking back at the experience of nearly ten years, Tang Shangzheng also had some regrets. In the middle, he had the opportunity to take a different life.

Tang Shang

14th college entrance examination

On the evening of September 16, Jimu reporters saw Tang Shangzhang in a barbecue restaurant in Nanning, Guangxi. He also accompanied him with the director of the documentary "Ten Ten" He Hanli.

Compared with his peers, Tang Shangzheng still maintains a thin figure like a teenager, holding a small bag with a clean look. During the conversation, he was a little shy and his voice was very small. After listening to the question, he was used to thinking for a while and answered briefly.

After deciding not to go to college, Tang Shangzheng went to Nanning from his hometown to Nanning for a while to be a tutor to earn the cost of re -reading. After the student started, his home taught stopped and returned to his hometown again to accompany his mother to the Mid -Autumn Festival.

In 2022, Tang Shangjun took the 14th time to take the college entrance examination. Although the school is ideal, care is not his ideal major. "At the age of now, studying for four years, and then going to work to work."

For majors, he is the first choice of agriculture, thinking that he can return to the countryside after graduation and engage in breeding. "This is also what a friend gave me suggestions." Tang Shangyi said.

After several nights of tossing, Tang Shangzheng chose "again" like 13 times before. He packed the admission notice of Shanghai Jiaotong University as the original and locked it carefully into the drawer.

Tang Shangjun's desk

In Nanning, he was most afraid of receiving a call from his family every day, especially the 72 -year -old mother. Last year, in order to persuade his family, he promised that he would go to college no matter how much this year.

Throughout the summer vacation, his mother called him 3 calls, and every time he thought about repeating content, let him finish work early in college, get married and have children, and stabilize. The mother asked him: "Listening to others say that this school is good, why not go to study?"

His brother and sister called, and he could still argue. For his mother, Tang Shangjun did not dare to refute in a word. He could only listen silently, and his heart was mixed.

The mother knows that some words are useless again, because they cannot persuade him. She is most distressed and most concerned about this younger son now, fearing that his family and academic ends will fall in the future, and he is worried that it will cause mental illness in the past. "I have never seen such a toss."

Tang Shangjun received a notice from Jiaotong University

"If someone guides me at the time"

"Repeating for 13 years of candidates for Shangqinghua" is an introduction to Tang Shangzheng on Weibo, but he has never liked it and felt too paranoid. He applied for a few times to change this introduction, but was rejected.

If he can change it, he prefer a word -non -perseverance, but he only knows it later.

In Tang Shangjun's view, the marathon -style college entrance examination experience began to be ignorant, and continued to "want to rush" unwillingness and ambition.

In retrospect, he regrets it, but he can only continue to move forward. "If someone guides me at the time of my college entrance examination, tell me that I can take the postgraduate entrance examination after the college entrance examination. It is not just a lifetime."

Tang Shangjun was born in a small mountain village more than 70 kilometers from the county town in Shangsi County, Fangchenggang in 1989. On the mountainside, a low -red brick tile house built in 1996 seemed a bit abrupt in the surrounding buildings. This is his home. Today, Tang Shangjun's mother is looking forward to pushing this old house and re -construction after graduation.

Tang Shangji's hometown

There are 5 brothers and sisters in Tang Shangji's house. He is an old man. His father was a teacher, and later he and his mother pulled a few children by planting sugarcane.

At that time, I wanted to come out of remote mountain villages. The best way out was reading. No one taught him this truth, he realized from his father. Although his father hadn't taught him much, he knew that his father was knowledgeable, and many things in the villagers would discuss with his father and find his idea. Tang Shangjun felt that his father and others were different, and culture would be respected.

His brother and sister dropped out of school after graduating from junior high school. He went to work early to earn money. Tang Shangzheng was very angry. At the beginning of Xiao Sheng, he admitted to the county's best thought in the county with the first place in the township.

The village college students are rare species, but a college student is well known. He was admitted to Tsinghua University in the 1990s, and now he has been in politics and has built a way for his hometown. Although there is no concept of Tsinghua University, Tang Shangjun knows that this university is a good school, and you can change your destiny after being admitted. Unlike the stars in elementary school, after the junior high school, Tang Shangzheng obviously felt the gap between himself and his classmates, and began to become shy, and then he was inferior and self -abandoned.

In 2009, Tang Shangzheng took the first time to take the college entrance examination.

He chose to repeat it. He scored 405 points in the second year and went to three. This time, his family asked him to go to college. He filled out a junior college in Nanning, but made a bold decision on the occasion of the school: hiding his family, lied to go to college, and then re -read the tuition fees given by his family.

At that time, Tang Shangjun thought that if he was studying for another year or two, he could be admitted to a good school and explained to his parents and himself.

Concealing his parents for re -reading, Tang Shangzheng went to work in the factory

Life that deviates from documentary

A lie, use tens of thousands of lies to circle.

Repeating is difficult, the most difficult thing is to hide the psychological burden of the family. During the re -study in Qinzhou, he met the third sister who lived in Qinzhou twice. In order to confuse the level, he could only say that he was looking for classmates in Qinzhou; he had to go to Nanning several times a year, just to call the phone at home to display the place of the home phone to show the place where he showed his home. In Nanning; after the winter and summer vacations, he did not dare to take a high school textbook home, and he would bring college high numbers and professional books back ...

After repeating this year, he scored 475 points in 2011, 505 points in 2012, and 537 points in 2013. For the first time, he exceeded a score line. In 2014, he took 573 points and was accepted by Southwest University of Political Science and Law. After receiving the enrollment call, he decisively refused. Over the past few years, the annual results have risen steadily, and the "Tsinghua University" name that was expected to be imminent seems to be getting closer and closer to him.

Countless times, he wanted to tell his family what he was doing. However, because he did not achieve the ideal results, Tang Shangzheng felt difficult to open up, and then swallowed it back to his mouth. Unexpectedly, this concealment was 6 years.

In 2016, Tang Shangzheng in the eyes of his family had graduated from college and worked in an electronic factory in Nanning for 3 years. That year, his father was suffering from cancer. His college entrance examination reached a relatively good score, 625 points, and was accepted by the University of Political Science and Law from China University of Political Science and Law.

Holding the university notice, Tang Shangzheng chose to confess to his parents. The father on the bed did not blame him, but was proud of him, saying that his perseverance was admirable. The unknown mother took a notice and read and looked at it. She felt that her son was out of interest.

After receiving the notice, Tang Shangjun's parents were included in the documentary "Ten Ten" by director He Hanli.

Tang Shangzheng and He Hanli in junior high school

He Hanli is a junior high school classmate of Tang Shangjun, and also comes from the mountain village in Shangsi County. Because of his similar experience, the two became good friends in junior high school and met with the university in Beijing.

After graduating from college, He Hanli has always contacted Tang Shangzheng but rarely responded. Until 2013, Tang Shangzheng told He Hanli's situation. "I'm still studying in high school, high school." Tang Shangzheng told him.

After learning about the situation of old classmates, He Hanli was shocked. At this time, he filmed a documentary in Guangxi TV, and he realized that Tang Shangzheng's experience will be a good documentary theme. After being able to withstand the requirements of the old classmates, after ensuring the impact as much as possible, Tang Shangzheng agreed to He Hanli's shooting request.

In August 2016, He Hanli applied for funds to Taili and funded Tang Shangzheng to take his parents to Beijing. Tang Shangzheng bought a sleeper ticket for his parents and sat in a hard seat by himself. After arriving in Beijing, Tang Shangzheng accompanied his parents to visit Tiananmen and Forbidden City, climbed the Great Wall, and tasted Beijing roast duck. The documentary "Ten Ten" contains the happy smile of Tang Shangzheng and the two elderly people.

"Although I did not realize the dream of Tsinghua University, I realized the dream of taking their parents to Beijing." Tang Shangzheng was a little relieved.

Tang Shangzheng climbed the Great Wall with his parents

At the end of 2016, the 30 -minute version of "Ten Ten" was broadcast on the Guangxi Variety Channel. On the eve of the college entrance examination in 2020, Tang Shangzheng's experience attracted widespread attention again, and "Ten Ten" also frequently appeared on hot search.

"Ten Ten" ends when Tang Shangjun enrolled in China. But unlike the end of the documentary, Tang Shangzheng dropped out of school from China University of Political Science and Law, and then took several college entrance examinations, until now.

There is not much time left for yourself

If there is a chance to come back, Tang Shangzheng said that his best choice is to enter the Chinese University of Political Science and Law from the University of Political Science and Law in 2016. "Now graduated."

In 2016, the summer vacation from the university notice, he saw the re -enrollment advertisement of a middle school in Pingguo City: more than 600 points or more, rewarded 100,000 yuan, subsidized 2,000 yuan per month In Qingbei, rewarded 600,000 yuan.

Tang Shangzheng tried to persuade himself in his heart that his father cured the disease, and his son must have a little force. With 100,000 yuan, you can not only help your father, but you can solve your own tuition and living expenses in the future. Moreover, if you "rush again", you may be able to pass the Tsinghua University in your dream.

Therefore, after reporting to China University of Political Science and Law, his college life lasted only a short week. Since then, he went to repeat again.

Two years later, his father died of deterioration. Tang Shangzheng asked his father for a month and accompanied his father to finish the last journey. Unfortunately, his father's last days were coma, and he did not leave him a word. The road to the college entrance examination of Tang Shangjun is still continuing: 550 points in 2017, 619 points in 2018, 645 points in 2019, 619 points in 2020, 591 points in 2021, and 597 points in 2022. He was admitted by key universities such as Jilin University and Chongqing University. After reaching 600 points, he encountered his own bottleneck, and it was difficult to improve the score, and even slipped. This year's Shanghai Jiaotong University was the highest ranking university he tested.

With the increase of age, Tang Shangzheng also obviously felt the pressure. In the past, I only had dreams in my heart. Now he has to consider more. "At the age of the family, the older mother needs to take care of it, and there is no house." This pressure is obvious in the past two years, and it will even let him take the exam in the exam. Insomnia all night.

Tang Shangjun occasionally dreamed of it. Sometimes he dreamed that he had been admitted to Tsinghua and realized his long -cherished wish. After waking up, he had only deeper loss in the face of the empty high school bedroom.

Tang Shangjun took a photo in Tsinghua Garden

More often, he has a nightmare. He dreamed that he was in the examination room, but forgot to bring stationery, anxious like an ant on the hot pot.

In 2023, Tang Shangjun will wait 15 times to take the college entrance examination. In 2024, Guangxi will usher in the reform of the college entrance examination.

"There is no retreat, you can only rush forward." Tang Shangzheng knew that there was not much time left for himself.

"Lift one foot, the other is deeply trapped"

On September 1 this year, the 76 -minute full version of "Ten Ten" was released on the network platform. As soon as it was launched for 2 days, I rushed to the No. 1 Ranking of Tencent Social Documentary Hot Search.

The re -released "Ten Ten" has added many psychological details of Tang Shangzhang, showing the tangles, helplessness, persistence, and regrets behind Tang Shangzheng's choice.

"The failure to be fully released that year has led many netizens to verbal his tutoring behavior, causing harm to him." He Hanli said.

In He Hanli's view, Tang Shangjun was affectionate, persistently tenacious, laughed at his life, and had the temperament of the rivers and lakes. "When he was overwhelming, he also helped the tuition netizens who had never met. The money supports others to complete the re -reading and realize the dream of going to college. "

After the shooting of "Ten Ten", the relationship between He Hanli and Tang Shangzheng was closer. He often met his life and occasionally let him go out as a photography assistant to shoot. "Sometimes I envy him very much. Although he is economically poor and white in these years, he is mentally rich and the happiness index is higher than many people." He Hanli said.

Tang Shangjun (left) and He Hanli

Every year, He Hanli persuaded Tang Shangjun to go to school. The other party never agreed, but He Hanli understood.

"He just chose a different way, which stems from the environment of its growth. If you have experienced his childhood, maybe you will understand his choice." He Hanli said, "Tang Shangzheng and I are in the same county. In the towns next door, we also have 5 siblings in their respective houses. It can be said that the family background is extremely similar. We have been struggling on the food and clothing line since we were young. Give us the opportunity to go to school. We do farm work from small fields, often have no time to read books, have no money to buy homework, without high -quality educational resources and sufficient learning time. "He Hanli said that everyone should spend time to think behind hiding behind hiding behind The issue of promoting society, especially the progress of education, instead of staying on the criticism of Tang Shangjun's personal attack.

"If you ask me, do you want today, whether you regret it now? Indeed, now your life is in a more embarrassing and embarrassing situation ..." On September 2nd, Tang Shangzheng published a long post on Weibo for the first time. He said Today's situation is "trapped in the quagmire, raising one foot, and the other foot is deeper."

On September 6, he wrote on Weibo again: "Cherish the moment, start bravely!"

Tang Shangzheng and He Hanli's back

In the early morning, the reporter said goodbye to Tang Shangzheng. He drank a lot of beer but was not drunk. On the way, he lifted the fell bicycle.

His figure was overwhelmed by the dark night, and after a few hours, the sky was on.

Can Tang Shangjun wait for the "dawn"?

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