Over 50 years old, they broke the waves by the wind

When the light people fell into the "35 -year -old anxiety", a group of aunts over 50 years old were breaking the wind to confirm their career value.

"Character" interviewed four aunts. Among them, some people became costume models at the age of 56. Some people came to Beijing alone after two failed marriages. "There are people who learn English, painting paintings, and learning ballet. They have learned these useless skills. Whoever questions her, she will go back. She said that life is expensive and have to live well.

In a accelerated society, the anxiety brings to age is conclusive, but for each individual, it still needs to break anxiety and find the possibility of stabilizing themselves in daily life.

As Jiang Zhongjiu in the article said (she shared her mother's story): "The so -called career crisis is because people are easily lost after 30 years of age, and various information is overwhelming, and reality is repeatedly grinding you. The more people will slowly lose their positioning of themselves, and finally follow the waves, regret it on her back. "From her mother, she began to understand," The so -called experience is not specific knowledge and knowledge, but you are for some regularity. Make it. "And this will bring fixed force.

Wen ｜ Feng Yingxing

Edit ｜ Huai Yang

Figure ｜ Interviewees provided (except for special labels)

Jiang Zhongjiu

In the age of 60, my mother ushered in her career peak

My mother is 68 years old. Whenever the New Year is approaching, she is full of expectations. Her previous employer would come to the door to invite her to the company's banquet. At the meeting, the former employer would send her a red envelope, thanking her for contributing to the company and expressing her miss for her. This is one of her most proud moments in the year. If she is willing, she can be 80 years old.

After a while, my mother was depressed. When she was young, she studied the school of finance and trade, which was equivalent to the current technical secondary school. She graduated from the countryside and made educated youths for seven or eight years. She returned to the city and distributed a pharmaceutical company as an accountant. She was a state -owned enterprise. When I was a kid, I went to her office, crackling, she hit the abacus to fly. When I went to college from home, I called her for a while, and I felt vaguely feel depressed. Later, I heard that her company was about to close. Finally, the rumors were implemented. At the age of 47, her mother lost her stable and decent job. Essence

At that time, I was young, and I felt more blunt about this kind of thing. I did n’t know what to lose work for a person or a family. I just felt that my mother's temper suddenly became erratic and angry. Come, start crying everywhere, sometimes at the dining table, saying while eating, crying while crying, "Why did I become a useless person?" Prior to this, she felt that she was a professional woman and went to work every day. The day was full and full, but at that stage, she suddenly lost the coordinates of life. This state lasted for more than a year. At that time, I was studying outside. Her emotions, my father had a lot.

After a semester, I went home on vacation and suddenly found that she started to work. It was a small accounting firm in our county, and my father introduced her to her. In the small place, the human affection is complicated, and because of her love, she will try it. In our intermittent contact, she told me that she began to learn computers -during the time when she was unemployed, the manual accounting method of state -owned enterprises was gradually eliminated, and the charging of finance and accounting became a new trend.

At that time, she was about 50 years old. I saw her learning a computer. The two fingers rubbed on the keyboard. Every time I pressed the key, I had to find the next key. It was clumsy. But she learned Wubi typing and learned Excel. When this new "professional language system" was converted, she soon proved with her ability that this accounting firm could not leave her.

I started to feel her changes. When working in a state -owned enterprise, drought and floods were guaranteed. But after employment, I got up early every day and walked for 10 minutes to the company until she resigned at the age of 66. She had never been late for more than ten years. Either work at the company every day, or on the way to report taxes, or go to some small mines to deal with some tax issues that they cannot solve.

It was the era when the individual economy developed rapidly. My mother went to the small mine with a small bag. Together -they don't understand this. My mother clarified the bills one by one, classified, posted them one by one, and then went to the account. These jobs are very hard -working. My mother is experienced and thin. She is clear about the tax system and teach them some tax knowledge from time to time. The owner of the mine plant is very polite. New Lord Gu. When she is enough, she will take it one after another.

That's the fastest income growth. When she left from state -owned enterprises in 2001, her salary could be up to 2,000 yuan a month. Later, I did it myself, and I could get a maximum of more than 7,000 yuan a month. In the small county in my house, I have entered a high -income group.

The increase in income is only part of her confidence, and the reshaping of personal value is the most important core. After 60 years of age, the peers around her have already retired and brought my grandson at home. My mother stood in the crowd. She always had a straight waist, her leather shoes was bright, and she was 10 years younger than her peers.

The previous year, she retired with the owner of the accounting firm, saying that she was going to rest when she was old. The previous customers would also contact her from time to time, saying, "After Sister Jiang, you have left a few people in a row," and the money for her to continue helping her. I always ask what troubles they have, and tell people how to do it. The other harvest of this re -employment experience brought her: a new social circle. She quickly adapted to retirement, and played with her newly known friends over the years and went to the farmer. Now, I have been middle -aged, and I have gradually understood the anxiety when my mother was just laid off. However, my employment environment is more free than her. In her years, she was in a state -owned enterprise for a lifetime. Everything was given by public public. It was rarely seen in the second choice. Delivery. Sometimes my customers also talk to me about my middle -aged career crisis, but I think that the so -called career crisis is because people are easily lost after the age of 30, and various information is overwhelming, and reality is repeatedly grinding you. More and more people will slowly lose their positioning of themselves, and finally follow the waves, regret. For me, after the repeated establishment and pursuit of self -worth, it was not until I was 39 years old that my career began to go smoothly. But from my mother, I also started to understand that the so -called experience is not specific knowledge and knowledge, but your grasp of some regularity. The freedom you can get is not what kind of client you can receive, but how much you have to reject others. When you get this freedom, the so -called mantra of population dividends will no longer exist on you.

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Gao Hui

50 years old,

Freedom that can be understood and forgive everything

It wasn't until I arrived in Beijing that I finally lived myself.

Some words are gone, so I will say. At the age of 9, I heard that I was holding it. When I went home, I went home and asked my mother. My mother was particularly angry and went to the house that told me. I know that I said something wrong and did something wrong. Since then, I have not mentioned it, but I feel more and more real in my heart. Once I ate in the room, and heard my parents chatting in the yard. My mother said, "Why is this child? This is not good. How can it be good for her."

I know how much they are. In front of them, I dare not say a word. I was bullied at the school and dare not say that I went home to vent at the wall in my room at night. I have used this way.

I got married at the age of 20, why so early? Because I want a home that belongs to my own. I always feel that my parents need to be pleased, and the pressure is particularly strong. It is difficult for people who do not have such an experience. But it is the urgent mood to escape from a cage, which leads to errors in the choice of the other half, so that they can enter the next cage again.

The first marriage lasted for 12 years. My ex -husband and I worked with a chicken business, and my head was full of money. When the business is the best, there will always be a brigade at the door of the store, and you can sell more than a thousand chicks a day. Do it during the day and do it at night. I feel that I can't do it anymore. Catching up the New Year, I didn't look at it for two days and two nights. This kind of life is not my meaning. My life I have been yearning for is normal during the day. After work at night, a family of three can eat at a dinner table, bend together after eating, and I can talk about watching TV together when I go home. But such a luxury, I did not realize it all day. I once said this idea to my ex -husband, and the answer I got was always, "Just wait for enough money." But how much money is enough? Human desire is dissatisfied.

In this marriage, the feeling of my hopes did not get it. When the dispute at home is the most intense, (ex -husband) will do it. For a while, I often ran out in the middle of the night, kept walking along the road, and went back to the way I could think of him. Northeast night is extremely cold.

Now thinking about it, the way he could think of him at the time was just wronged himself. In your words now, you are called flattering personality.

When I proposed a divorce, the whole family turned over. In our time, that small place, divorce was very shameful. Once I went downstairs to buy vegetables, and the two people who heard the vegetable market had a loud voice and talked about my business. After that, I did not go down the building for a month.

Life still has to continue. In those years, I worked as a waiter, selling clothing, and doing all kinds of lives in the restaurant. I was going to go out when I was not bright. I still met the hijacking of a black car driver at 3 am. I jumped and walked a few kilometers to the hospital The needle is like Mumini. The second marriage was maintained for 10 years. Until 2017, my mother's brain bleeding was bed, and people needed to take care of it for a long time. Even if I didn't have so much energy to take care of my husband. Over time, he was deeper and deeper. Between marriage and mother, I chose my mother and got married again.

Taking care of my mother's last two years, I did not undress and slept. Until January 3, 2020, the mother spent May 7th. As the New Year, my friend said that a nanny at the old aunt in Beijing wanted to go back to his hometown and need to find someone to take care of it. I have the experience of taking care of people. I was alone, and I came to Beijing.

In the past three years in Beijing, I have been a nanny and done a moon. Now this cleaning is my third job. I have done it for more than two years. The debt is returned. Gao Hui in the company's photography Feng Yingxing

Like me, it is difficult to find a job in my hometown, but in Beijing, I think every guest is particularly cute. When I think they are cute, my life is cute. Beijing has high quality and can learn things. The first list I took, from a very decent aunt. She checked the dust on the corners of the corners at the light, which would make me lose a few seconds, but I continued to clean up quickly. Now, I am very grateful to her. Whenever a messy house is cleaned, I look back when I go out, and I feel proud. I like Beijing very much, not just because Beijing has given me to work, but this fast -paced life can really make me feel alive.

I go out at seven or eight o'clock every morning, sometimes at 11 o'clock in the evening, and rest in the corridor at noon. Sometimes I can't lift my arms and sleep at home. After working for a long time, I slowly started to maintain myself — I was used to getting up at 4:30, making a rich breakfast for myself, trying to eat 15 kinds of food a day, and then followed the live broadcast. Only by adjusting your body exercise can you extend your professional life. When you come back at night, you can read the book. Every book is okay. Next, I have to learn in -depth cleaning, storage, and more skills.

When doing cleaning, I heard some young customers chat occasionally, saying that the 35 -year -old crisis or something. But I am 50 years old and have no sense of career crisis. No matter which profession, you must continue to increase your value. Some customers often pay attention to asking for fixing me to come to the door. Sometimes because of the conversion of the work place, I tell the old customers that I can't do it. The customer said in surprise, "What do you do if you leave my house?" It is my most affirmative moment. Essence When your value continues to increase, the sense of crisis is gone.

Now it is really the best day in my life. My parents were sent away properly. The burden in my heart was unloaded and finally could live for myself. In the first half of my life, I was taking care of others, and now I am finally taking care of myself.

I have n’t pleased others for a long time. When I did not arrange to clean, I went to the park myself. Beijing is really freedom. This kind of freedom is the freedom of the heart. You can understand everything, you can forgive, not being restrained, and deep in your heart. Some things that were worried about before were diluted and light. At that time, it was thought to be difficult, there was always a time.

I often think that when I get older and more capable, I will go to an elderly apartment, keep with my friends, and buy food, cook, and clean it every day. There are always people who die in the apartment, and then there will be new blood in again. Everyone is happy to go to the return of life.

When there is no cleaning arrangement, Gao Hui likes to visit the park

Sister Bai

56 years old, I became a model

Unexpectedly, I became a model at the age of 56.

I am very busy every day. For example, today, I came to the company at 6 o'clock in the morning, and I went home at 6 o'clock in the evening. The work time was almost one time (12 hours). Change your clothes and go to the short video platform to test the money. When the most, you need to change more than forty sets of clothes in three or four hours. On average, you need to change a set and complete the shooting. Especially during the live broadcast, one stop is five or six hours. In order to make the clothes show better results, it also needs to be paired with high heels. Over time, the calves can't stand it.

Many young people in the company will be tired, but I have never complained and smiled every day. They sometimes say, "Sister Bai doesn't feel tired, why are we not as good as others?" Every time they said, I was very proud.

In fact, I am also tired, but I like this job. I have loved beauty since I was a child. The environment of this job is clean, and I am very satisfied. After doing this job, I also care about my dress and maintenance. Essence is much better than my peers. When I am this year, it is not easy to find a job. I can see my value. I cherish it very much.

I am from Gansu. After my granddaughter was born, I came to Wuhan from my hometown to help my daughter bring their children. When my granddaughter was 3 years old, I went to kindergarten, and I was idle. I told my daughter that if I want to work again, I really don't know what I can do at this age. One day the daughter came back from get off work and said that a company recruited aunt as a model and asked me if I wanted to try it.

"Yes, as long as others can see me!" I didn't even ask the basic situation, I responded. So far I still remember that on September 1 last year, I went to work on the first day. In the past 10 months, I have grown more and more powerful, and my mood is particularly good every day.

The most rare is the subtle changes in the family environment. Before at home, my daughter -in -law discussed some young people. I also wanted to participate. They would say, "I don't understand it to you." Although I was inadvertent, but I was quite lost in my heart, am I really old?

But now, most of them are young people in the working environment. I am not a aunt, whose aunt, mother or uncle, my colleagues call me "White Sister", as if I am a big sister around them. We work together to work together. , Eating together, the confusion they encountered in their work and life will tell me that I will not feel that they are many years older than them. After a long time, my daughter -in -law felt that I had a change, and I would come to listen to my opinions when I encountered anything. The son -in -law even lamented, "Mom is already at this age and is still struggling with us. What are the reasons for us?" I think I can do this job until the day when I can't move. The longer I work here, the more I feel that the job is "the older the older the more fragrant." Many elderly people are shopping in the live broadcast room, but there are very few elderly models on the market. Because elderly models have gaps, many companies will use young people to "play old", but the model of "old" is still the elderly. The true body is different, and it may not allow the elderly to buy appropriate clothing. I think that after I am 60 years old, there are fewer and fewer models on the market, which may be time when I am more competitive.

Women have to be self -conscious, I know this reason for this reason. In the 1990s, I was in a beauty salon in Tianshui. The name of Tianshui was "water in the sky". The four seasons were clear, the climate was particularly good, and Tianshui girls also loved more than northwest. At that time, the consumption of beauty salons was not high. It only took 5 or 10 yuan to make a beauty, and the most expensive package was 30 yuan. Most of the people who come to do beauty are women of ordinary families, but they are more particular about. When doing beauty, customers like to chat with me and talk about the shortness of parents, and I often help them enlighten them. We got married early at that time. Girls entered the marriage and family early. But in my beauty salon, many customers cried and mourned, and their brows stretched away. They often told me, "Sister Bai, I will talk to you, and I feel comfortable."

What impressed me most was a woman in her 30s who opened the mining at home, but her image was inconsistent with her age and conditions -the face was dry and the socks were black. It is the kind of outdated clothes more than ten years ago, and it looks much older than the actual age. As soon as he mentioned his family, he cried when he said. She felt that she could save money with her husband and earned some money, but her husband did not cherish her.

I can't do anything about her family. The suggestion to her is that she can support it. I persuaded her, "You fight hard to make money at home, and your own conditions are good. Why can't you want to persuade her to consume, but just feel worthless for her. Packing the loot, the bleaching is beautiful, right? She thought for a long time, and finally she was not willing to buy a bottle of skin care oil for herself, which was more entangled than ordinary customers. For her, I was a bit "hate iron and steel" -the heart to others, why can't I invest in myself?

I still remember the customer's look. You have to invest in yourself. A while ago, my husband always advised me to return to my hometown, but when I thought of returning to my hometown, I was cooking for him, and I was more resistant. I always feel that I am still young and let me cook at home every day. I was a person who couldn't come down. Later, with the job of model, I always did it. The girl is afraid that I am tired and feel that I do n’t do it, but I think that as long as I want, it does n’t matter if I am tired.

Sister Bai

Liu Ruoran

64 years old, life is very expensive, live well

I was born in 1958 and asked me how big I have. I am not as much as my peers. Many of them are taking grandsons and like to chat with others, but I am not like this. I started learning ballet at the age of 58. I learned piano at the age of 59, I learned English at the age of 60, and now I started drawing again. I am not enough every day.

Learning so many things, the initial cause is because of curiosity, and I still have a lot of curiosity to not be satisfied. Moreover, in our days, many things we want to do have nothing to do at all, and there is no condition to learn. Now I still have the ability. I have to do it little by little before.

Taking English as an example, after retirement, a friend asked me to go to his company to make an accountant. It was a foreign trade company. He was not busy with work. There are many young people in the company. They are all post -90s and post -95s. English is particularly beautiful. There are many foreign customers. The first place I contacted is an Italian customer. Everyone dinner at night. It's so depressed, it's not okay.

When I went back, I decided to learn English. I wanted to sign up for a online English education class. I was very entangled at first. The tuition fee was not cheap. After the money was paid, I also chose a foreign teacher. I have to learn English. Why do I have to find Chinese people?

Until now, my daughter was very surprised. How did an old lady who could not learn English in the classroom of English? Not so easy, the class is 1 to 6. The teacher chatted with each classmate one by one. When I asked me, I couldn't understand, I only said "I don't know". "Know" has passed. I told the teaching assistant after class. I can't learn to comfort me. Other students are not so good, just a few lessons than me.

I touched my scalp and went up in English. After the class, the words are copied on the small paper, and the corners of the study are everywhere I posted a small piece of paper. I often look for assistants, "If you still can't learn it for three months, can you retire from my tuition?", The assistant teachings can't cry and laugh, saying, "Yes." Within three months, I took it. The teacher praised me, "You are so powerful" (you are so powerful). He said that there was a student union, and he was not timid to say something wrong. He didn't care if he said wrong. He continued, even if many sentence patterns were wrong, he had to talk about the sky until the wrong sentence became less and less. I thought that the 60 -minute class every day must not be wasted. Although the course is one -to -six, many classmates will be missing classes. I often have a one -to -one effect in one -to -one group lessons. In the end, I used it for one year. course. At the end of the course, the teacher wrote in the comments, "You are completely beyond my imagination, I like students like you so much."

Liu Ruoran

The boss heard that I was studying English, and the company had a foreign guest to visit. He transferred my work to that day and asked me to help receive foreign customers. At first, it was nothing more than "What do you need?" "Is it busy recently? "Coffee or tea?" Later, I was familiar with the customer. I could talk to him for more than half an hour.

Since I am learning English and often hear different voices, many people ask me if I am going to immigrate. I said, "What are you going to do?", "What am I not going to do, I just want to learn." Among these questions, they also include a very good friend. After she questioned me many times, I told her very angrily, "If you say this again, don't call me anymore."

Learning things has nothing to do with others. There is no need to explain your motivation to others. I just want to be myself firmly. I am just a very ordinary old lady. By this age, everything may occur suddenly tomorrow, and I will live well now. Learning English, I won't ask for anything, what kind of goal is, it is my upward desire.

I went to learn piano, learn to paint, and jump ballet. It was also a chance to see it. If I was interested, I persisted. At the age of 56, I saw an adult ballet advertisement and immediately went to Taobao to buy skirts to buy shoes and socks. Before the Shanghai sealing control, I went to class every Saturday, 50 kilometers one way, and I felt that I would arrive in a while. When I first studied, I could do all kinds of actions of the 13 -year -old girl. I think I couldn't reach that level in my life, but I have practiced the movement that the little girl can do, such as when the leg is pressed, the whole I can do it on my thighs and feet, and I can do it.

As for which day I can jump, I didn't think about it. I want to jump until the day when I jump.

Retirement means that you are old. I am afraid of growing up slowly, I ca n’t do anything. I ’m afraid that one day, I want to paint my eyes badly, I ca n’t learn English, and I want to jump baldies. So I work hard, my life is very expensive, and I live well.

I am 64 years old and is the best stage in my life. If you think about it, when you are young, the pressure of reading, the pressure of employment, and the pressure of children's family really exist. After retirement, these pressures are gone. You can choose a job, you can choose not to work. When you have time to do it, everything is not required, which is the best state.

Liu Ruoran dances on the street

(Liu Ruoran's picture is provided by the interviewee, photography: Dong Xiaozhao NEKO)

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