How about you, are you staying in a big city?

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Text / Ammark Bear

A few days ago, the bear bear suddenly asked me, "Is there any change in your manuscript last time?"

I replied, "I'm moving and moved back to Qingyuan from Guangzhou."

On the top of the chat box, the bear's "being input" stopped.

After about 1 minute, he made another sentence:

"If you have a chance, will you come back to Guangzhou?"

In May, the night before going to Guangzhou.

Dad asked again tentatively: "Otherwise, just look for a job near home, it is not as difficult as living in Guangzhou."

I shook my head and said, "I'm really, I really want to go to Guangzhou."

In fact, I don't know when I started, I have an inexplicable obsession with Guangzhou or big cities -I have a satisfactory job, wearing beautiful skirts, entering and leaving in a clean and bright office building, drinking coffee office.

The reason why obsession is because you do n’t do it yourself, you will never give up.

Dad no longer persuaded, but I just switched to me in WeChat. After thinking about it, I covered me 500 yuan from my pocket: "Although they are all mobile payment, some cash is always better."

"In short, if you are not good in Guangzhou, go home."

Probably, one of the panic performance of fresh graduates to find a job is to download the recruitment software again.

Reliable, unreliable, I have traces of leaving resumes on it. Including the job search information from Haitou, there should be a number of 1000+ in memory.

In these, there are professional counterparts.

It is strange that most of the responses received by the interview are that I am not suitable for this position, and I recommend me to think more about other locations. Of course, one or two are passed by the interview, but the salary is between 2800-3500.

With the idea of ​​"touching luck" and "not saving this traffic", I also invested a lot of other positions.

There are offers edited by a new media editor. The condition that can be given is 2,800. There is no commission in the first three months. After the transfer, it is 3500+ commission, nine to five, and two rest.

My cousin is 5 years older than me. I remember that he said that when he graduated in 2017, the first job he was looking for was a new media editor with a monthly salary of 2800 yuan and a Zhengzheng 3,500 yuan.

In other words, 5 years later, this salary has not changed. But the same cup of tea has risen almost 10 yuan.

The sense of frustration is produced through comparison.

In my circle of friends, some people entered the moment of celebration of "holding 5-6k salary and entering a good company".

I do n’t understand whether it ’s my problem or professional problem, or it’ s so difficult to get the employment environment now.

On the way back from the interview, I squeezed out of the subway station of Line 3 and transferred to the BRT to go to the upper society and Tangxia.

Suddenly, I was narrowed to the handshake building in Chengzhongcun, and the fast food in the alley was a bit rejected. But even in the village in the city, I am not qualified to live in it for the time being.

From the environment to life, to the work income, there is no one to count as a fulcrum that I can survive in Guangzhou.

I watched the black head in the bus. Some of them were wearing awkward white shirts and high heels on their feet. They held the A4 transparent plastic file bag in their hands, for fear that it would be wrinkled in the pocket.

Suddenly, I understand why 2,800 yuan can still appear in the recruitment market-

Because you are "looking at", there will be other graduates "seeing".

Before applying for a job, I thought it would be uncomfortable to be rejected for fresh graduates.

But I later discovered that it was already a lucky thing to be refused in the workplace. At least after the idea was broken, you can continue to find the next copy.

Remember, when interviewing the training specialist of a car brand.

On the second side is the leader of the direct. He said: "The post of this training commissioner, if you think about it, do you have to go in the direction of the teaching affairs, or the lecturer? It's not just a clerk who stayed in academic affairs. "

I told him that if there is a chance, of course, I would like to go to the lecturer.

Then he told me: "I know this position better than you, and the post you want can not provide you."

I didn't respond for a while.

You said that you want the new employee to "go to the lecturer's post", and I also expressed the willingness to "go to the lecturer", but you answered that I "can't provide such a job opportunity."

To this day, I don't want to understand what the logic of this rejection is.

If the other party wants me to retreat, it is better to say that "you are not suitable for our post" directly.

Between the resume and the interview, I gradually cleared out what my actual needs for work.

Eager to enter the big company; after the monthly income is five insurances and one gold; it can be more than 5,000 yuan; the weekend is off;

After I told my friend Awen, she said three words: "There is in a dream."

I did not refute. For me who graduated from the two colleges, these requirements seemed to be a bit overliner.

From the time when I first came to Guangzhou, I became repeatedly jumped in anxiety and self -comfort, and in the end of the rotten mentality: it was all so, that's it.

In the 7th week of Guangzhou, the 3,500 yuan given by Dad has already spent time. I started to use a little savings before I was before I could only support 10 days. At this time, I received an offer for the interview two weeks ago.

The human resources department of a large enterprise is Guan Peisheng. The monthly salary of the trial period is 5,000 yuan, 6,000 yuan after the transfer, nine nights and six, and two breaks.

All conditions of this job match with what I want. The same is the same, there is something to go -its work location is not in Guangzhou, but is sent to Qingyuan, my hometown.

This may be a joke with me, but I thought about it: No, God has no time to reason me.

Between the hesitation of going, I still insisted on throwing a resume. But in the 50 days before, I couldn't "win". It was difficult for you to expect to come back in the last 10 days.

Over time, I chose that job.

After walking around, I returned to my hometown Qingyuan again.

When the keyboard knocks on this article, it happens to be the first night of my new entry. I was sitting in the room and drinking my mother's eyebrow bean chicken feet soup.

Compared with Zhanjiang Baijie Duck, Spicy and Longjiang Pig Foot Rice in the city in the city, the old fire soup at home is much more peaceful.

After a hot soup slipped into my throat, I knew that the obsession that stayed in Guangzhou had been dispelled by it.

Frankly speaking, I never wanted to go home.

Or more accurately, I have thought about going home, but that should be after 3 or 5 years, and I was exhausted to Guangzhou's life. It will never be just two months.

In May, I participated in the chaotic jogging plan. I wrote an article "How about you, do you choose a big city?" "

After seeing the bear bear, he felt that I didn't think very well about staying in Guangzhou. Let me dry the article first, wait for some time to find a job, and then think about how to modify it.

I just did not expect that when I modified this article again, I had left Guangzhou.

Seeing that I wrote in the article before, the ruthless words that said "will definitely stay in Guangzhou", I gradually accepted the so -called "face" -

The obsession of myself should be put down by myself.

At that time, I strongly advised my friends Awen to stay in Guangzhou together.

Unexpectedly, I returned to my hometown to drive a small electric to work, and she stayed in Guangzhou Line 3 subway and BRT.

On the day I left Guangzhou, I wanted to tell Awen, "After the summer vacation, I will come back to Guangzhou to play with you again."

When you go to your mouth, you suddenly think of:

We have all graduated and never have summer vacation.

Shooting the sunset when starting from get off work

Edit

I am a bear bear.

Ami, the author of this article, is the first classmate of the messy writing jogging plan.

When I first saw the article, I felt that Ami did not write his true thoughts in the article. Want to make her stable, and then think about this article.

Until three months later, when I was looking for her, she said, "I didn't dare to find me" "I didn't stay in Guangzhou" "I felt lost."

In fact, I have never felt that I can paint the same number between giving up and losing.

The title of this article turned out to be "You, did you choose a big city? "How about you, have you stayed in a big city? "

From choice to staying, although only three words are different, it is Ami's experience in these two months: from obsession to giving up, from Guangzhou to Qingyuan.

Perhaps this is not an ideal answer, but it is a real answer.

But I always think that staying in Guangzhou may not just win, and it is not necessary to lose when I return to small cities.

Back to the beginning, I asked her question: "If you have a chance in the future, will you return to Guangzhou?"

She may have forgotten, or she may not know how to answer. But when I asked this question, I already had an answer:

If you have a chance, let's talk about it.

Well, how accurate, there are not so many so -called firm choices.

There is a lyrics in "We all grow up like this":

The crowd is concerned about the crowd, and there are always escape from emptiness.

Later, it was understood that hesitating and struggling with suffering was the norm in growth.

We all grew up like this.

Good night.

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