"I treat my ex -boyfriend, 2 years."

ID: ilovexiaogai

Before going to bed, I opened Xiao Li's Weibo.

At 10.23 last night, he posted a picture of a dog.

Harvest 6 likes and comments interact 3 times.

It's all avatars and nicknames I have never seen.

In fact, we have broken up for two years.

In the past two years, I will continue to treat his Weibo uninterruptedly.

After breaking up, I hacked all his contact information,

But every time we have fixed video, I can't help but search for his Weibo.

He is not updated often, but he often likes some dynamics, so I follow it.

Watching the game yesterday, watching entertainment news today.

I shared his online life like I didn't break up.

Every time you open Weibo, his account is like a famous attraction that must be visited.

For more than a year, I have been lying in the list I often visit.

Until my treacherous behavior was exposed by a slide late at night.

Search the next day, it is already "users do not exist."

He obviously felt disturbed.

The shame and the decent principles of peeping are telling me-

Don't look at it.

I forced myself not to see it, and I uninstalled Weibo.

But in the gap between many subways and time after meals, I will still come up with the thoughts I want to see.

I can't help but want to know:

How did he have lived recently? Is there a new ambiguous girl?

I feel shameful for myself to come up with such an idea.

And once distressed, angry with your own disappointment- ——

Why is the relationship over, and I am so curious about him?

It seems that there is the idea of ​​"want to peek at his Weibo", which means that I am in this relationship in this relationship.

I also have deep worries and fear.

I was worried that I would never forget him because of this, and finally reunited.

Later, I asked a few friends. After breaking up, they saw the social platform that raped the predecessor.

Why do you peek repeatedly?

In the early days of breaking up, it may be because our brain is not used to it.

It is not as easy as breaking up.

Studies have shown that the reaction of the brain during the breakup is even consistent with detoxification.

Two intimate people who used to be directly separated, and the harm to our brain was too harmful.

Looking at each other's Weibo, it becomes a transition period.

To some extent, we are actually deceiving our brain through this movement.

Then, slowly accept the fact that "breakup".

And go closer to see--

"Looking at each other's Weibo" actually promoted us to "go to charm".

If you don't look at it, you will add charm value to the other party because of the mystery.

The depressed curiosity accumulated to a certain degree, but it easily broke out at once.

Keeping attention without pulling black, you will gradually discover with the daily sharing of the other party:

Oh, he ate a ball today. He played basketball tomorrow. She made nails today. She was in a bad mood this week ...

He is just one, once. Ordinary people who walked through our lives.

When a relationship is over, we will always ask ourselves to let go as soon as possible.

It seems that the faster you put down, the lighter, the more free and easy.

We always disdain those "idiots and women who are struggling in the love river, and feel that it is a state of the weak.

We are afraid of time passing away, hate ourselves in vain.

But just as the brake takes time.

It takes time to stop our hearts to stop their hearts, no longer inertia and miss.

Our body has its rhythm.

Even if it is issued to it, it is not to be put down the next second.

It is not a small project to completely change the behavior mode and lift a person from various logical associations.

And when we accused ourselves accusing ourselves before we forgot, we fell into a self -violence.

This does not help us to let go, but adds more burdens to our hearts, hindering the process of pushing down.

In fact--

Really put down, all happened in silence.

Sometimes the more you want, the more you can't let go.

At the end

Later, I was busy dealing with the work of just getting started and rectifying a messy life.

Time is only enough to watch news and hot events with Weibo.

I really haven't regarded rape Xiao Li for a long time.

He has been squeezed from my Weibo's frequent access list.

After a long time to open Xiao Li's account, he also saw that he announced a new relationship some time ago, and his girlfriend was very beautiful.

I just found--

It turns out that my heart has let him down unconsciously.

I did not forget or reunited with him because of frequent peeking on his Weibo.

Is it not important at all in this relationship of this relationship?

Therefore, if you have just ended a relationship, you are struggling to watch Weibo, do you want to delete WeChat, do you want to pull the contact information, do you want to throw away everything related to him —

Let's follow your body.

Don't worry, give you some time.

Believe it, support it, don't urge or blame it.

There is no right or wrong, there is no so -called optimal solution.

Make a decision that makes you feel comfortable.

Then, wait for the real time to happen.

I can't control it, just want to be for a while

It's ok.

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