People are middle -aged, who is not Liu Zhenyun's "One Earth Furry"

Some commented that Liu Zhenyun's famous work "One Purple Hair" gave a slap to a young man who was unprepared and ambitious.

The protagonist Xiaolin in the book stands only when he is buying food, work, nanny, and children everyday.

He dare not have ideals, no longer ambitions, he becomes vulgar, but is full of heavy falling and unwillingness to reality.

The exhaustion and sadness on the paper, hiding the collapse of the adults caught off guard.

When I was young, everyone fantasized that life was glory.

But life has always been a feathers, and no one can put it outside.

The outside is bright and beautiful, and the home borrows a wolf. The collapse of adults often stems from some trivial daily details.

The collapse of Kobayashi's husband and wife today is a pound of tofu.

Things are simple. The tofu bought by Xiaolin in the morning did not put it in the refrigerator in time, and it changed. After returning home from get off work, his wife Xiao Li blamed him.

In the face of his wife's anger, Kobayashi was also aggrieved. He went to grab cheap tofu at six in the morning and lined up for more than an hour to buy it.

Because he was delayed for too long, he was remembered "late" at work, and he was unhappy all day.

Everyone is tired of going to work a day. When you go home, you have to cook and make your children. When you encounter something uncomfortable in the unit, you have to face these garlic.

At this time, any little thing about sesame and mung beans will become the last straw that crushes emotions.

As a result, a pound of tofu that is not worth a few dollars made the couple quarrel with a hysterical, a tearful face.

In the opinion of outsiders, Kobayashi and Xiaoli are bright "successful people".

Both of them are civil servants of the organs. With their own efforts, they stand in the huge Beijing heel and settle their careers.

But in fact, every month's salary, the chai oil and salt that you have to face every day, can make them feel frustrated and weak in minutes.

The Kobayashi family is in the countryside. They are now in Beijing. They have no foundation, and they have to rely on themselves.

With the birth of the child, the pressure of life is increasing, and the two people face more and more problems.

First of all, you must solve the problem of "North Drifting".

After several toss, the two spent almost all savings, and finally got out of a one -bedroom.

Here is a full four hours from the small Li unit.

Then there is the "bringing baby".

Both of the couples have to go to work. No one comes to look at it. She can only pick out a person's salary every month to ask for a cheap nanny.

The cheap nanny is delicious and lazy, but afraid that the other party will anger the child. The couple of Kobayashi have to pretend to be disappeared and even deliberately pleased.

With a smile on his face, he said in his heart: Let's bear it, so that the child went to kindergarten, and immediately quit her!

The point is to learn to "save money".

The faucet does not tighten, and the water meter does not turn at the same time as dripping water, so that "free water" can be secretly stored;

Obviously do not like to eat Chinese cabbage, in exchange for unit subsidies, responding to policies, I still bought 500 pounds;

The child coughs and runny nose, is reluctant to buy the medicine prescribed by the hospital, and take the cold medicine of the unit to deal with ...

Lives are about to be careless, and people have become vulgar.

They didn't think of changing the status quo.

Young people can break, the elderly can be stunned. Only the middle -aged people who have the mouth of the family have lost their courage to rush forward. They can only follow the rules and stable the whole family.

Just like Xiaolin comforted his wife and comforted himself: "Life is like flowing water, it is quite comfortable to pass by day."

Speaking of lightness, turning his head, and being trapped into this continuous and chaotic parents, shortly day, day after day, year after year.

Middle -aged people, in Li Zongsheng's song, have crossed the hills, and seem to be able to laugh in pain.

But in fact, the mountain is pressed on the body, and it cannot be avoided, and it cannot be turned around.

Even though there are no major disasters, there is no serious illness, but every day, like a gyroscope to eat and drink La Sa, to deal with the fireworks that have broken this life, it is normally annoying, tired, declining, and funeral.

Even if you look at it at a glance, you still have to stand up like the blood of the chicken, to bear it calmly, and laugh at each other like a chicken blood.

You are eager to leave, but you have nowhere to stop. Without other reliance, you only carry it yourself.

It is trapped in front of me, and it is difficult to hide the disappointment of middle age. The young Kobayashi, who entered Beijing in Beijing, was a model of the cold gate and the model of the cold gate.

So he was full of anger, and even brought a little bit.

As soon as he entered the unit, he was ambitious during the day. Before he went to bed at night, he always had to read and read newspapers.

He always believes that he can take the initiative to choose and take the initiative, and he is not afraid of doing against the world.

However, the "青 然 然" Kobayashi, who can not learn the smooth world of colleagues, and cannot adapt to the complex interpersonal relationship in the office. I unknowingly repeatedly offended the leadership, promoted and salaryed into a luxury, and work like a pool of dead water.

Every year, college students come in one after another, and they have changed from "green teenagers" to no one who ask for "old dish gangs".

When the sharp youth enters the mediocre middle age, all passion and courage have become perfunctory of the present.

As Liu Zhenyun wrote in the book:

"No one has no career. Everyone has struggled, angry, and read the lights night. There have been a magnificent ideal. Thinking of a few years later, like everyone, they quickly drowned to the crowd of thousands of people with all thousands of people? "

In order to help his wife adjust a unit close to home, the couple went to the relationship everywhere, nodded their heads, and gave gifts to laughter, but the head of the personnel didn't even let them enter.

If you want to send your child into the best kindergarten near his home as soon as possible, the couple have been explored around, but they are more difficult than adjusting their wives. There is no way to give up their brains, and they can't even send them.

These traps are frustrated, and there is a bitter tears inside and outside, but the taste is not enough for outsiders.

But but the parents and teachers of his hometown are proud of him, and he praises him "with the ability."

Someone came to him for three days, and asked for such things like buying train tickets to the hospital.

Although the matter was small, he had no privileges. He had to get up in line to buy tickets like a person who arrived at first.

Sometimes in the middle of the night, Kobayashi also shed tears and slapped itself in the dark night:

"Why are you so incompetent, why can't you be so mixed!"

But when I opened my eyes in the morning, I woke up.

Behind the middle -aged people who are "getting mediocre, willing to be mediocre, and continue to be mediocre, there are dreams of disappointment.

However, in the time of defeat, accepting ordinaryness is not a shame.

Because the days when fine water flows is piled up by countless ordinary fine time, this is the fate of most ordinary people.

Don't be afraid that you can have ordinary life in this life and bland.

I am most afraid that you vowed in your mouth, but you can't accept your ordinaryness.

Rather than entangle face, it is better to live a good life. In fact, life will not be as good as you think, and it will not be as bad as you think.

In September, the Kobayashi family ushered in two good news.

One is that although his wife Xiao Li did not change to a job, the unit suddenly opened a direct shuttle bus, and she could easily get off work.

The young couple was very happy, but I heard that the original intention of opening the bus was to facilitate the leaders of relatives. She was happy and even felt that she was a "second -class citizen."

Another good thing is "falling in the sky".

Rich neighbors said that there is a place in the kindergarten in their own family. To let the Kobayashi family, the children of Kobayashi are successfully enrolled.

Later, they did not know that the neighbors were just afraid that their children would cry into the garden and pull familiar baby to "accompany them".

The couple suddenly felt that the neighbors were not at ease, worried that the child was bullied. As a man, Kobayashi felt humiliated. He felt that he had no ability and felt that he felt embarrassed.

What the world is unfair, what life is not easy, and the life is not happy, most of which are found by yourself.

Behind it is too sensitive and strong, there is a kind of inferiority in the bones.

Can't let go of self -esteem is a common problem for many middle -aged people.

Kobayashi's college classmate "Xiao Li Bai" is more clear than he.

In a secular sense, he failed than Kobayashi -poetry was just a small civil servant. He resigned to the sea and caught up with the company's closure. It's more difficult.

Although the poem is not written, the "little Li Bai" has not yet faded, and after several failures, she finds another way. Now she is rich in the selling board ducks, and I still don't forget to pull Kobayashi:

"I know you love that face! You are still naive and naive, you have to be sour as your face, and you don't want your face to enjoy the rich and rich."

Later, Kobayashi helped Xiao Li Bai selling ducks. He made a hundred eight days in nine days and bought gifts for his wife and daughter. Everyone laughed.

It turns out that all tangles are useless, so -called glorious faces are not as affordable.

There is a paragraph that says:

When you put down your face to make money, it means that you are already sensible; when you make money back with money, it means that you have succeeded; when you can make money with your face, it means that you are already a character; and when you have always been always, you have always been always Staying there to drink, brag, sleep, and pretend to know nothing. When you only love the so -called face, it means that you are like this in your life.

Many times, we lack a kind of free and shamelessness.

When you put down the useless face, learn to bow your head and release, this place of feathers can also be made into a feathers, streamlined your life, and make your mood suddenly cheerful.

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This novel was written in the 1980s and 1990s, and it has been decades since it has passed.

But looking around, how many people are still in the real life of chickens and dogs, losing their dreams, throwing their ambitions, throwing themselves, and living as a realistic version of Kobayashi.

The poet Beidao once wrote:

"At that time, we had dreams, about literature, love, and travel through the world.

Now we drink alcohol late at night, and the cups meet together, all of which are the sound of dreaming. "

Most of the dreams of middle -aged people are broken by trivial matters.

Lifetime is too short, so short that we have no time to remember sadness at all.

You can only throw off your face, live a good life, and when you have the power, then look for such a little romanticism.

Like the singing: "Who comes from mountains and rivers, but it is dazzling day and night, kitchen and love."

When you still keep calm in the world where the chicken flying dog jumps, you still do not have the pursuit of vulgar trivial matters, and you still do not turn your enthusiasm in the dull day day after day.Then the flavor of the fireworks you feel is also a rare Qinghuan.

Like a praise, although the feathers of life, you can still have a taste of life.Author: insights · North in the north

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