Story of a good mood patient | Two years ago, I confirmed the marginal personality disorder

"I want to send you a paper carving lamp, I hope you can think of me when you see it at all nights that can't sleep, think of all good things and happiness in life and the world."

01

Confirmed personality disorder

In April 2020, I went to the Psychology Department of the Municipal People's Hospital alone, and the diagnosis was a marginal personality disorder.

I have always felt that my psychology had problems. When I was in high school, the teacher suggested that I go to the hospital to see a psychologist, but because I was afraid of a person to go to the hospital, I kept dragging it.

I am a big grandma. It is no exaggeration to say that I never got along with my parents before junior high school. When I was in elementary school, I was very inferior and never dared to talk to my classmates and teachers.

I remember in the sixth grade, a boy in the class opened the window to my hand. I was impulsive at the time and threw the window fiercely back. As a result, the broken glass residue was pierced to the hands of other students in the hand. This is probably the first time I do things with extreme and regardless of the consequences.

The doctor said that I had social obstacles, and I didn't know it.

Indeed, my junior high school has never been a friend who has been at ease. No matter who is facing, I get along with each other, without my heart or enthusiasm. I often think, I am not good enough or gentle, can I really have them?

I am very bad. Selfish, indifferent, incompetent, will I like to abandon me, will I have the ability to get them for a long time?

I can not confirm. I know that it is impossible to go smoothly, so I closed myself. As long as I haven't owned it, I would not be afraid of losing or suffering.

I do n’t want to deal with people, and I do n’t like someone to take the initiative to associate with me. I often feel that one person is also good, how tired it is, and all kinds of relationships need to be maintained and reinforced. It is just that a person will feel boring and meaningless in life at some point, and it is better to die.

I have participated in three college entrance examinations and repeatedly studied for two years. In fact, after the first re -study, the schools and majors I was admitted were good, but I was scared. I was afraid that I could not adapt to college life and environment. I dare not go to college and face the unknown university for four years. I am afraid of leaving the familiar social circle and comfort circle, so I chose to go back to high school again.

As for my relatives' attitude towards me for the second time, they tried to discourage it, but I couldn't hold me alone. They compromised and asked me to go back and re -read.

In some things, I am always paranoid. No matter what I am sure, no one can persuade me. I get used to a way to go black, not hitting the south wall without turning back.

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Pessy and negative life

I am studying at a normal university now, and I have no positive interest in life and studies. At the beginning of the school, I didn't expect it, I was always pessimistic. During the period before the diagnosis, I was too depressed and negative. I was not very interested in living. I didn't have any energy to live. I was restless, I couldn't sleep all night, I couldn't eat meals, and I refused to communicate with my roommate. I wo n’t go to class in the dormitory on weekdays. I was afraid to face the crowd, and I was afraid of the noisy sound.

I was disappointed with myself, and I felt that I should not be able to survive. Do I need to do something and then leave this world? I ask myself.

After choosing a relationship with strange netizens, I took contraceptives, but what I didn't expect was that the contraceptive pills exacerbated my depression. The night when I returned to school, I was in a bad state.

That night I was crying and fell asleep. I woke up at two o'clock. I was disappointed, sad, and lonely. I couldn't sleep anymore, so I got up and took a stool on the balcony to dawn.

Life always continues, but I just want to escape, I am afraid to face everything.

Now I am tired of trouble, but isn't life trouble and trivial? I work hard to let myself look at the world, try to believe that the world is still beautiful, and let it be happy at the same time.

03

Emotional outbreak

When I thought I took medicine on time and re -retired, I could continue to live calmly, and the dispute in one class made me explode again.

That day was my 21st birthday. I put on the newly bought cheongsam and celebrated with my friends. All plans were beautiful. But in the classroom, a boy forcibly took away the schoolbag I put on the table, and sat next to me, and even chatted loudly with the table next door.

I had a mouthful with him, maybe I didn't argue with others for too long, and my eyes began to shed tears as soon as I was hot. After stalemate for a while, the other party changed my position. At that time, I was not very common in my heart. I poured up my head and poured up the water cup on the table to smash the boy. My impulsive behavior scared my friends sitting next to me. My friend quickly advised me, but I couldn't help but go to the boy and slapped him, and then packed the schoolbag and left the classroom.

After this incident, I couldn't stop crying, crying in front of the counselor, and calling the family to cry. I fell on my phone, I hit myself, I asked the counselor to give me a drop -out procedure. I want to leave the school and I want to leave this world.

Everything was too bad. My parents put down their jobs and came to my city. My school was holding me. My mother hugged me and cried. After a series of negotiations by my parents and the college leaders, I finally went through the procedures for the suspension and returned home.

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It turned out to be a two -phase

After that, my parents felt that the previous psychologist might not be very good. I took me to the psychological hospital in the provincial capital. The doctor said that it was a two -way emotional obstacle, and the marginal personality disorders were impossible. I also went to various psychological tests, and the result was moderate anxiety and severe depression, followed by prescribing and taking medicine. I also made psychological counseling on my parents' request. The doctor said that depression can be cured. I think he is comforting me. I don't believe that depression and mental illness can be cured.

There are side effects of taking medicine. I feel very tired. I ca n’t sleep well all night. I want to communicate with the doctor and hope to change the medicine. I even started to doubt the doctor’s diagnosis. Make me feel uncomfortable. I am afraid of taking medicine, and the adverse reactions listed on the drug instructions make me feel scared.

I don't know how to communicate with my family now. I don't want to go to a psychological hospital or continue to take medicine. I don't know if this idea is right now. I don't know how to communicate with the doctor. I feel very confused at this moment ...

Doctor reply

Hi!

The letter has been received. First of all, I feel sad about your past experience, but at the same time, you can be pleased to help you seek help through professional platforms in time.

I am a spiritual psychologist. After reading the letter, I feel that your current confusion is mainly concentrated in two aspects: the diagnosis of one or twice of the medical treatment is inconsistent, which makes you question the diagnosis of your doctor. What disease does diagnosis? 2. I feel that the effect is not good after the treatment of drugs. So what method should I use to treat it to get rid of the current confusion?

In response to the above issues, in the next letter, I will introduce the characteristics of marginal personality and two -phase emotional disorders and the identification points of the two diseases. What kind of illness you have done and introduce the future treatment direction so that you can receive the correct and appropriate treatment.

What is marginal personality disorder? The so -called personality disorder refers to a person who has gradually formed a fixed behavior pattern and habit of treating people from childhood to daily life that a person has gradually formed from the normal crowd, and brings pain or adverse effects on individuals or society. Edge personality disorders are a more common type in personality disorders, which are characterized by the extremely unstable of emotion, behavior, interpersonal communication, and self -cognition. Emotions are often negative and negative, such as anger, anxiety, depression, etc. Moreover, the emotional changes are extremely fast. Usually the last moment is still in conventional theory. The next moment is suddenly furious, and even impulses will even occur under negative emotional influence, such as destruction, self -harm, alcoholism or sexual intercourse. Interpersonal relationships are difficult to maintain stability, and often changes sharply between extreme intimacy and extreme opposition. Either the relationship is very good. It is believed that the other party is his own friend or confidante. In the case of the problem, he will extreme believe that the other party must abandon himself and deliberately hostile himself.

The evaluation of the edge of personality disorders is not accurate, even distorted, most of them are negatively self -evaluating. Even if a little setbacks are generated, they will be extremely worthwhile, humble, and even worry about being abandoned. In fact, the differences between the edge of personality disorders and ordinary people are ideas, feelings, and behaviors that are too exaggerated and extreme, too strong and frequent, so that they affect all aspects in daily life.

Double -phase emotional disorders are a type of mental disorder. It has a history of irritability and a history of depression. It is mostly recurrent sexual diseases, which means that when the disease is severe or manifested as emotional, energetic, and increasingly speaking Seizures, or depression of emotional depression, pleasure or loss (loss), fatigue and weakness. In the interval or ease of the disease, patients are emotionally stable and social and social functions are relatively normal.

Double -phase emotional disorders and marginal personality disorders have the characteristics of "unstable" clinical manifestations, so it is really difficult to identify in clinical practice, and even two obstacles may coexist at the same time. But we can still distinguish through detailed observation. Edge personality disorders have the characteristics of persistent and fixed, without a clear onset time point, and most of them show the deviation of behavior patterns or emotional characteristics that penetrate into all aspects of life in childhood and adolescence. Highlighting. There is no obvious interval or ease during the course. The consequences of the patient's impulse and the evaluation of others' evaluation of themselves. The course of dual -phase emotional disorders has episodes. It has a relatively clear about onset time. Patients' emotions, interpersonal communication, and social functions are relatively normal during the disease relief period. The performance of the disease development period is very different from its performance. Corresponding behavior and thinking disorders appear below.

Combined with your description in the letter, I think you can probably know what the problem is. You have felt your emotional instability and impulse from adolescence; there are social obstacles, alert to interpersonal communication, and worry about being abandoned. Self -evaluation of negative negative and inferiority, often choosing to escape in the face of difficulties, so that it affects his studies. Emotional depression is often depressed, in pessimism, despair, and even impulsive and high -risk sexual behavior even under extreme irritability. So according to the letter, you may suffer from marginal personality disorder. However, the diagnosis of the disease is not enough. It needs to be combined with detailed medical history and examination. Therefore, it is recommended that you go to a professional hospital in time. The doctor will give the correct diagnosis in combination with your situation. Understand the characteristics of the disease. How should I receive treatment and what kind of treatment should I receive? For double -phase emotional disorders, drug treatment is needed, especially the treatment of drugs based on emotional stabilizers, and requires standardized drug treatment under the professional guidance of psychiatrists. The treatment of marginal personality disorders is a long -term project that requires comprehensive treatment of psychotherapy, drug treatment, and reasonable education, training, etc. for personal reconstruction to gradually adapt to society. The process of personality reconstruction is relatively long, and it requires the positive cooperation and dedication of you and your family.

Finally, I hope you can always maintain a positive mentality to overcome the disease, actively cooperate with doctors, and receive standardized treatment. This treatment is a long and hard task. Confidence of the disease. I believe that in the near future, you will properly control your emotions and behaviors, and have an accurate evaluation and positioning for yourself, and there will be a circle of interpersonal communication circles and work that make you feel satisfied.

Thank you for your trust!

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