Patient story | During depression, I disguised a positive and healthy self

Don't let anyone change you

You are you or you can do

Someone will love you wholeheartedly

- "Rose Boy"

01. Discover depression

For a long time, I thought depression would not happen to me because I never thought of committing suicide. But in elementary school, the self -harm of self -harm in the class was allowed to be allowed. This is my cognition.

Later, I knew more or less that I might have depression, but I didn't choose to treat it, because at the time, my dad would never think that I would have depression.

I am accustomed to lying in the test and disguise a positive and healthy self. Because I have a lot of depression patients, I want to comfort them, so I must first have a strong image.

When I was in college, I knew that not everyone did a psychological test and would lie intentionally, so I thought, right? But I pretended to have nothing to do with it. Until I later, my physical symptoms became more and more serious, headache, difficulty breathing, and aggravation of my heart: I had to distribute the medicine. Later, because I was too sad, I picked up the knife.

But I still don't think my depression is serious, because they are all cut their wrists, I just cut my back. In my mixed network circle, a group of people are much more serious than me. In contrast, I always feel that I have no problem.

The doctor suggested that I was hospitalized twice, but I planned to drag the exam. In the end, I returned home with strong suggestions of the counselor and teacher.

02. Before that

My family is a divorced family. In such an environment, I have lived in many places and drifted away from the trouble.

My father was very violent, and my mother believed in the Buddha. They are very strong people, and they are also two extremes. Regarding my physical condition, one is indifferent and the other pays attention to, and this contrast has forced me to crazy.

I have not slapped less since I was a child. Primary school teachers love fan slap, junior high school teachers love fan slap. They like corporal punishment students, and bind a corporal punishment agreement: they have to remove the chair for three days without doing homework, and be late for one day outside the corridor ...

Students who speak empty talk about a hundred ancient poems every day, until the next person who talks about empty talk.

I wanted to jump off the building during that time, and I still didn't jump down in the end. At that time, I should still be afraid of death!

In junior high school, my emotions were very excited. In high school, the situation is even more. In the second year of high school, this fierce fading faded.

I feel more and more indifferent to my parents, and it becomes a child that parents like. They all think I am sunny.

Because my parents are extreme, my attitude of handling things is also very extreme. In the class, I either do the focus of the whole class, or do nothing, annoying, or becoming transparent.

My mother likes to say, "I'm so good to you, you have to come back in the future."

He wants to keep her money more than my studies. If it wasn't for my father, I would not be able to go to college.

But my father, he made my junior high school noisy. In the early morning, not only did he fight with outsiders, but even quarreled with his family. I didn't sleep well every day.

I also followed him and always liked to quarrel with them.

In real life, I don't have a friend, and I have identified my friends as a very valuable thing. Because my mother had no friends, she took me to live with me after divorce, and no her friend visited our house. She always told me: "Don't make friends, family members are the best for you."

Therefore, I have been looking for friends in the virtual world, and I have been splitting with reality for a long time. I always stay in my room, because I have to negotiate with my father and be beaten by my father.

My father always took me to his friend's house, and even lived in his friend's house, which made me feel insecure.

03. The date of hospitalization

The days of hospitalization are easier than I imagined, after all, I think the hospital will be very hard.

Here, the attitude of doctors and caregivers is very tolerant, and I can't meet people with extreme.

At first, I chose to use "the focus of all people" to disguise myself. I turned myself into a girl who loved laughter and understanding, so many people asked me, am I really depressed? Everyone thinks that I am normal. I only told the doctor all when I was psychological counseling.

In those years, I told netizens about countless my pain experience. The doctor also gave me suggestions. I also wrote a letter to the doctor.

(Thank you for your thanks to the doctor)

04. After that

After communicating with the doctor, my emotions have improved now. But I am also thinking about deeper issues, such as my gender consciousness is chaotic, and I have always regarded myself as a man. And too many friends in the virtual world have caused me to have no friends in the real world.

I am used to a person's life, but there are always people who want to approach me. They think I am pitiful and lonely.

For a while, I closed myself and didn't want everyone to approach, but some people always wanted to approach me.

Later, I also felt lonely and pitiful. I made myself a long time for some reason, I really regret it, and I want to suicide a hundred, but I don't think the world is bad.

Interestingly, although I have so many problems and the idea of ​​suicide, I still feel distressed those who have committed suicide.

There are many people from junior high schools smaller than me. I just discovered one of them. How many people dare not treat, refuse to treat, and do not take depression seriously?

Many people are still afraid that their parents are afraid that they have depression, and they still dare not go to see a doctor, and think that they can eat it. I think everyone should treat depression correctly and treat it as an ordinary disease. In this world, we can still hear a lot of words such as "depression is to think too much". If we want to change these words, we must fundamentally change the awareness of depression from Chinese people.

My father, I don't think I have depression, he thinks I just don't want to open it.

Doctor reply

Good mood signing physician-Jiao Jianping, deputy chief physician, Kunshan Mental Health Center, ordinary psychiatric department

Hi!

After reading your letter carefully, I feel very sorry for your misfortune. From the letter, I saw your helplessness and embarrassment, and also felt your efforts and strength!

As a professional psychiatrist, I want to share some knowledge about the disease with you, I hope to provide some help to you!

First of all, let's talk about the cause of "depression". Each patients with depression will have the same or similar symptoms, unhappy, interesting, fatigue, etc., but because of the complicated cause of this disease, we will use "biological-psychological psychology -My society to understand the cause of the disease. Among them, the factors of the creature are more understood as possible to conduct abnormal conduction of monoamine neurotransomed receptors in the brain, such as 5-HT function, such as 5-HT function Low low; second, the psychological factors mostly come from the impact of personality and temperament, which may be closely related to our childhood psychological trauma and the growing cognitive evaluation in the later period. As for the social factors, including the growth we experienced Environment, life events, major stress, and even chronic stress incidents are closely related, so this complex cause will bring huge difficulties and challenges to the treatment and rehabilitation of patients with "depression"!

Next, I want to talk to you about the mainstream treatment methods and methods commonly used in "depression", including: drug therapy and psychotherapy of non -drug therapy and physical therapy. Symptoms of "depression" often affect our quality of survival. In severe cases, it will lead to self -abandoning ideas and behaviors, which seriously endangers life and safety. Drug treatment is the fastest and effective solution to patients with depression. For varying degrees of depression, depression to varying degrees In the case of symptoms, after a doctor conducts a full spiritual and psychological assessment of patients with depression, the doctor will choose a relatively suitable drug for treatment. The treatment process includes the acute period (6-8 weeks), the consolidation period (4-9 months) , Maintenance period (2-3 years), and patients with more than 2 depression will recommend the treatment time to extend to 3-5 years. Patients with depression 3 times and above will recommend long-term treatment. Long -term and systematic treatment, a lot of patients will be difficult to accept or continue to occur for such treatment cycles, causing recurrent diseases, which will bring longer effects. Of course Knowledge of evaluation is related, such as denying that you are sick, you don't think so, and even feel that you are related to the "illness" caused by mental illness. The vast majority of system treatment can be recovered. Of course, it is like a general "cold". It does not pay attention, does not pay attention, and does not deal with it. It will also bring bad consequences!

In addition to drug treatment, psychotherapy is also one of the treatment methods for helping patients with depression. Among them, "Cognitive Behavior Treatment (CBT)" is a very effective method, as well as "interpersonal psychotherapy" and "mental dynamics therapy" , "Family Treatment", etc., can be used as a very good way to treat drugs!

Physical therapy is also widely used in the treatment of depression. For example, patients with severe abandonment of ideas and behaviors can be used for MECT (improved electrical convulsions), and craniotomy stimulus. In the end, as far as the whole treatment process, I also want to tell you that the treatment of disease is expensive. Only persistence can only be exchanged for a better tomorrow for life!

Let's talk with you here today. There are too many topics about depression. I hope this letter today can bring you some help. I also hope that you can defeat the disease soon and welcome better. s future!

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