Mochou, Mo Chou

Text ｜ Big Fish

Source: Chen Luyu's movie sofa (lyyy_scndgs)

With the hit of Sister Lang's third season, Wu Mochou, who had disappeared from the public vision for three years, returned to the camera again. The makeup was light and the shape was no longer as exaggerated as before. Or did I know Wu Mochou at the beginning? "The young became famous, became popular, and retreated after three years. After three years of silence, I set off again after zero. How much do a girl go to her ideal appearance? The answer floats in the wind.

I want to become famous

In the summer of 2012, a music show called "Good Voice of China" was born, igniting the enthusiasm of many people's long -disappearing variety. If time can go back to that year, you will find that no matter which city you walk into China on Friday, you can see a group of people sitting in a tavern or a stall while drinking skewers. Picture.

Some companies' annual conference game links also often staged a low -end version of "Good Voice of China" -n four people sitting on a small black round stool in KTV. You turn around and listen to you about the bitter bridge section in the workplace these years.

The 20 -year -old Wu Mochou entered the public vision that year.

The unique and alternative voice, the stage performance of the attacking power, made her pass through the pass, and eventually became a good runner -up of that year. Followed by many celebrities' dreams of first -line brands, her photos logged in to the New York Times Square, and her huge posters were attached to her subway station.

Be sooner to become famous.

Wu Mochou felt that this was very cool when he was a child, and the script of life also played in this sentence--

She was born in Qiqihar. Her father was a local anti -string artist, and her mother was a teacher. When she was a child, Wu Mochou often followed her father to perform. Due to her father, she liked music since she was a child. The happiest thing every day was to go home from school to take out the CD machine to listen to songs.

At the age of 9, Wu Mochou was taken by his father to participate in a singing competition and won the championship. At the age of 10, he entered the Shenyang Lefu Art School and began to learn to sing. At the age of 19, he was admitted to Shenyang Conservatory of Music. At the age of 20, he participated in "China Good Voice" and became famous.

When this show has not been introduced, she has already watched the American and British version. When she watched it, she was amazed: Someone could sing like this! "Also transferred to the chair, it feels cool, very special." I started looking forward to: when can China have such a competition?

I did not expect my wish to come true.

When the first issue of "Good Voice of China" was broadcast, Wu Mochou watched at home. The whole person was very excited and thought -how can this stage be without me!

It didn't take long before the good voice show group found Wu Mochou and invited her to Shanghai to participate in the recording. Wu Mochou's mother at first was very opposed, because her daughter had a dead experience of being deceived. At that time, the other party was a person who posted a good voice and said that she would sign a contract with Wu Mochou and want to lie to her. Because of such an experience, when the recording invitation from the good sound show group was really received, Mother Wu was worried that her daughter would be deceived again, so she advised her not to go.

However, Wu Mochou had decided, and said "no" to his mother for the first time since childhood. She wanted to rush, and instinctively felt that she had a drama to the end. Although Shanghai is far away, she feels that there will be a position that belongs to her.

Ten years later, Wu Mochou looked back at herself at that time -20 -year -old she stood on the stage of a good voice, facing the predecessors under the stage, proud, fearless.

At that time, she enjoyed lighting, applause, enjoying everyone's gaze, and aware that in the eyes of others, she was handsome, cool, unique, and different.

At that time, she didn't know that the pride was actually fragile, and she could easily break it.

Zero

Wu Mochou in adolescence, with short hair with short hair, dressed in hip -hop, at first glance like a boy. After entering college, she wanted to change her temperament, leaving her hair a little longer, turning into a wave head, Qi Liu Hai. She likes the color of lipstick with tension -purple, red, and dark red, and she feels that the photos taken are cool enough.

After debuting on the good voice stage, Qi Liu Hai and Big Red Lips have also become the image label of Wu Mochou. With smoky makeup and exaggerated shape, she was called "Chinese version of Lady Gaga" by the outside world. The darling of the front -line brand, flying a few cities a day, shooting magazines and advertisements, and the commercial value has risen straight. The brand endorsements of finding Wu Mochou have liked it since childhood. When she was a child, she often participated in the offline singing competitions of those brands. At the moment of the endorsement, she felt that her dream came into reality.

But the reality after being irradiated with strong light has far exceeded her imagination.

Wu Mochou, who was standing in the entertainment style, was standing under the microscope -her makeup, her shape, and her every move were magnified infinitely.

Before becoming famous, she often had a face and didn't feel anything wrong. After becoming famous, because she was often recognized on the road and asked for a photo, she began to pay more and more attention to whether she had makeup when she went out. She couldn't care about the eyes of outsiders as if she was free.

The media always asked the same question, she didn't understand -I have answered this question a hundred times. Why should I ask? Regarding some rumors, she doesn't want to respond, she is confused -I don't know what's going on, can I not ask me anymore?

Many songs asked her to sing. Some of them were actually very resistant, describing the kind of resistance like "children picky eaters" -Some people like to eat meat, some people like to eat vegetables, some people like sweet, and some people like spicy. However, when she encountered music that did not meet her taste, she couldn't make a refusal. She always felt that "no" was a matter of being too wayward and self -self, and disappointed others' expectations and efforts to her. So she can only solve it by herself: try a lot, it is an opportunity. There are more and more work, flying every day, and sometimes waking up or even knowing which hotel you are in. Listening to music is less and less, I just want to make up for a little free. Sometimes she wants to stop and rest for more quality music. After seeing the dense itinerary, she is embarrassed to speak. She does not want to disturb her colleague's arranged work, for fear of causing trouble, fearing that others think she is "too aggressive" and "too much", and she is afraid of losing opportunities.

I can only tell myself: hold it again, and hold it again.

The result is two years.

All kinds of storms are constantly accompanied by her -in the subway station, some children are scared by her photos; netizens have selected "Asia's Ugly Star", she ranked first in the list; a music festival performance, because the organizer communication and process errors caused her The time to play was postponed for two hours, but the netizens were accused of "playing big names" ...

On the one hand, it is a high -saturated job, and on the other hand, the accusations, criticism, ridicule, and abuse of all parties. She was scared by these voices, and she didn't know how to express it, and she became more and more closed. In the state of physical and mental dual exhaustion, Wu Mochou's pride and confidence suddenly disappeared. During that time, she did not dare to open a private message on Weibo. Each of the aggressive words shaped her heart like a knife.

She found that she couldn't sing as simple and happy as before.

She found that she suddenly started to fear the stage.

She found that she seemed to lose enthusiasm for music -resisting to listening to her songs, unable to lift the spirit to listen to others' songs, and cannot devote himself to performance to enjoy music. The whole person is like the tightened clockwork doll. , Generate a "physiological" boredom.

Wu Mochou couldn't accept such a self, and he was looking for a way to regain his love for music every day. I tried to talk to others and tried to get understanding. As a result, in the eyes of everyone, she was lucky to be more lucky than most people today. She should know how to cherish opportunities and continue to move forward.

But if a musician can't love music anymore, where is her way out?

After trying countless methods, she felt that she may really dislike music- "Then don't, just like you have been holding things that love the most for many years. I still can't understand the way, I don't understand, I don't feel it. "

In early 2019, Wu Mochou learned that his mother was seriously ill and decided to return to his hometown to take care of his mother. She asked the company to leave, and proposed to take a break for a while, first look at the situation, if the mother can improve before returning. The leader agreed and said to her: Then take a break for a while, the mother's body is the most important, don't worry too much.

When she left, she thought: the times changed so quickly, maybe she couldn't come back after returning. But even so, she is ready to face the results. "Because I think, I am no longer the living self that loves music."

When the personal difficulties were put together with the sick mother, Wu Mochou realized that she had thought of "big things", and it became no longer important now.

Seven years after her debut, she chose to clear everything her past.

Again

It is three years of disappearance.

After taking care of his mother, Wu Mochou will look at and eat in his spare time. In the past, I always restrained the diet for the image. Now I do n’t have to work, and I have completely let go -milk tea does not drink less, the garbage food does not eat less, and the happiness brought by the food again, and the whole person is also fatter.

When she went out, she didn't want to be recognized, so she put it up, and worn her hats and masks, basically cutting off with the outside world, and almost rarely communicated with friends. I learned that she was doing well.

For nearly two years, she did not listen to songs, watched any shows related to music, and brainwashed herself almost every day -I have never done music and have never been to the entertainment industry.

Until a day, she went to the market to buy food, and surprise appeared.

It was a morning, the sky was blue, and the air was sweet. Wu Mochou wore a pair of shorts and stepped on a pair of slippers. The sun was lightly sprinkled down, falling in the bustling crowd, and the stalls were colorful and fruits. People are strolling slowly. There are no right and wrong here, only the most rustic fireworks.

Wu Mochou felt so happy all of a sudden, she suddenly wanted to listen to the song, so she turned on her phone and started playing a song of an Indian R & B singer, and her enthusiasm for music seemed to be back again. Later, she began to listen to her songs again -before, it was impossible to happen. "The first song was" Just now ", I felt at the time -was this person who was me? This classmate was so passionate, burning, and the natural sound in the sound. I wrote, each lyrics were burning to me, and I was encouraged by my own songs. That taste is wonderful. "

After the music enthusiasm rewinds, Wu Mochou began to tangled again. She asked herself: "You still like this (music), but there may be no place for you there, what should I do? There are more and more platforms for a singer to operate. Do you have so many content output to everyone? "Just when she was entangled in her heart, the call of the" China Good Voice "show group came again. The identity of "Sister" participated in the recording and asked her if she wanted to go? Wu Mochou felt very lucky -when she found that she still loved music, she had the opportunity to return to the place where the dream started.

The state of fearlessly came back again. It is also the same work. It is also necessary to do programs, perform on stage, and face the media, but Wu Mochou is no longer afraid, but is particularly excited and enjoyed. In the past few years, she has begun to learn to stand on the perspective of the audience to watch her performance, summarize where to adjust, and think about what kind of stage performance a song to convey to the audience.

In the past, she was always eager to get the recognition and encouragement from the outside world, but now that no one shouted for her, she felt it didn't matter. She just wanted to sing and make the stage more delicate. Focus on yourself. "You focus on what you should do, the strength is up, everyone will see, you can sing, the audience will praise you, will not attack you all the time, this is the real feedback that the audience gave me after I returned again ","

She no longer draws exaggerated makeup, and she learned to refuse when she encountered songs that were not suitable for herself. Looking back at that year, she felt that she had done the biggest effort at that time, but sometimes she was too pursuing perfection and forced herself too tight- "You can allow you to put it occasionally, lie down for a while, relax; there are some songs; there are some songs; there are some songs; there are some songs; You can sing without singing, you can say 'No. I am so happy, I can finally do this. "

She is no longer afraid of being denied, no longer forcing herself to answer because she is afraid of the embarrassment of the cold field. She began to accept her personality, accept her appearance, and accept her uniqueness. From his debut to silence to come back, after experiencing all this, Wu Mochou cherishes the hard -won opportunities, and cherishes himself more.

Now she just wants to use music to impress others and accompany others, rather than please others and cater to others in other places. If it is possible, she wants to have a concert that belongs to her own.

If she can talk to herself ten years ago, she wants to give the two songs to that girl, one is "Can you let go of yourself" and tell her "I really don’t have to be too stubborn, don't be afraid of anyone disappointed"; One is "Mo Chou" - "Mo Listening to Words, waiting for the change, looking back as I wish."

Reference for interview material ｜ "Lu Yu has a one -day trip" Wu Mochou interview with Wu Mochou.

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