I can't imagine it at all, he is such a father

In the big director Xie Jinshu cabinet, he was holding a picture of his life as he was in his lifetime. No one can imagine what kind of loneliness, helplessness, and difficult life on the other side of his great artistic achievements. If we associate such a family background with so many movies in Xie Jin, it will really feel an incredible feeling. Every evening, his tall and tired figure walks back to the image of the door step by step, so you must not let people cry again and again. Tears are not for sympathy, but for a greatness. Can a messy spirit vortex extend a great spiritual power? Xie Jin answered, and the audience across the country nodded. I think this scene is difficult to see in the history of human art. Xie Jin's hand built the chaotic spirit vortex into a humanitarian temple.

Men Kongwen | Yu Qiuyu 01

To this day, Xie Jin's younger son A Si didn't know what "death" was.

Everyone thinks that this time it is time to let him know. However, no matter how he explained, his honest eyes told you that he still didn't know.

Ten years ago, A San, who was also mentally retarded, didn't know where the little brother went. Dad told everyone, don't explain death to A Si;

Two months ago, A Si's elder brother Xie Yan left. A Si didn't know where he went. Dad said to everyone, don't explain to Ashi death;

Now, Dad is gone, and A Si does not know where he goes. He only had him and his eighty -three -year -old mother at home. A Si did not want to hear the explanation. Who explained, it was who took away the little brother, big brother, and father. He must follow and find it.

02

When A San was still there, Xie Jin said to me, "You look at his eyebrows, sparse, and grinded on the door hole all day. As long as I go out, he can't do without the door, seconds and seconds, etc. I'm back."

Xie Jin's door holes, commonly known as "cat eyes", knows that it is a small device in the world outside the gate. I heard knocking on the door or ringing on weekdays, first glance here, recognize who it is, and then decided to open the door or not. But for Asan, this light -filled glass hole is an eternal waiting. He does not allow himself to have a slightest relaxation, because his father may appear there every moment, and he cannot miss it for the first time. Except for sleeping and eating, he watched there. His feet were numb, his neck was sore, his eyes were confused, his eyebrows fell off, and he did not retreat.

03

What does Dad do outside? He didn't know, and didn't want to know.

On one occasion, Xie Jin talked with me, talking about how easy it was to add a little humanity to the movie in the closed era. I suddenly associated, saying, "Xie Dao, you are A San!"

"What?" He looked at me strangely.

I said, "You are like your family, you can find a hole on the closed door, and you stare at your eyes. Look at the light, wait for your family, you have not let go except sleeping and eating."

He listened to a shock, looking at me with a bright look, not talking.

I also said, "Your door hole has also become the door and holes of the audience across the country. No matter what season, a glass is bright, and everyone sees a lot of scenery and many humanity. Your advantages are the same as A San. Then Just endlessly persist. "

04

He created an independent and huge art world in China, but when he returned home, he was a world that ordinary people could not imagine.

He and his wife Ms. Xu Dawen gave birth to four children, and there was only one normal mind, which was Xie Yan. Xie Yan's two younger brothers are the third and fourth princes mentioned earlier, both of which are seriously mentally retarded, and the situation of her sister is not good.

These four children were born from 1946 to 1956. At that time, it was difficult to find a professional school for mentally handicapped children, and everything was piled up. The family situation is extremely abundant and the work is extremely busy. What happened every day in this door? Only God knows.

05

If we associate such a family background with so many movies in Xie Jin, it will really feel an incredible feeling. Every evening, his tall and tired figure walks back to the image of the door step by step, so you must not let people cry again and again. Tears are not for sympathy, but for a greatness.

Can a messy spirit vortex extend a great spiritual power? Xie Jin answered, and the audience across the country nodded. I think this scene is difficult to see in the history of human art.

Xie Jin's hand built the chaotic spirit vortex into a humanitarian temple. I have been eating at his house many times. He cooks well, often greeted the guests around Bai Wai, holding a spatula in his hands. Guests may be Hollywood stars, French directors, and Japanese producers, but in the end Xie Jin will always rub his hands, introduce the special circumstances of his two sons by translation, and then ask for it. This unscrupulous frankness made me open. In front of the guests, every smile and movement of the mentally retarded son, in Xie Jin's view, is the most cute look of human beings, so the eyes are full of appreciation. He brought this glory to the entire gate and all the guests.

06

He sometimes travels with his son. I listened to Ms. Zhang Huifang, general manager of Xie Jin Film Company, said that when she went to Luzhou, Zhejiang, she took a van and took several hours on the road. Xie Jin, who was sitting in the front row, had to look back and asked, "Is Ashi tired?" Snow mountain melted. 07

He never expected that the only normal person in his family, the elegant gentleman who came back from abroad, his eldest son Xie Yan went away first.

Xie Yan knew that his parents' life was overwhelmed, and he kept hiding his condition, so as not to let the elderly know. He cooked everything clearly, then put on a clean suit, went to the hospital, and never came out again.

He begged the people around him, don't let your father and mother come to the hospital. He said that his father was too famous, and he would lead the media as soon as possible, and his current image would make his father and mother sad. He kept thinking: "Don't come, don't come, don't let them come ..."

Until a week before his death, the people around said that now we must let your father and mother come. This time, he didn't speak.

Xie Jin always thought that his son was a general hospitalized hospital, and he didn't know that it was so serious. On the bed in front of him, his only son who could talk to him was no longer like.

He was like a statue that was suddenly dried in front of the bed for a long time and a long time.

Xie Yan said to him hard: "Dad, I have trouble for you!"

He said tremblingly: "We treat, children, don't keep it, we treat ..."

From this day, he has accompanied his wife to the hospital every day.

08

Xie Yan, who is alone, is 59 years old, but now he rushed to the elderly every day and asked, "Why don't dad come? Why didn't your mother come? Why didn't Dad come?"

That day, he was so painful that he asked to play morphine, but the doctor was hesitant. Fortunately, the volunteers of the Tzu Chi meritorious association came to sing Buddhist songs, and he was calm.

Mrs. Xie Jin and his wife accompanied his son, almost spent the night. The staff was afraid that the two old people in their eighties couldn't hold it and persuaded them to temporarily go home to rest. However, before the two elderly people arrived at home, Xie Yan died.

09

Xie Yan was buried on September 23, 2008. On the next day, on September 24, friends from Hangzhou invited Xie Jin to disperse their hearts, and how long can they live. The outstanding man who received him was Ye Ming who had just lost his child.

The two hugged as soon as they met, crying. The two of them had cried countless times for their son a few days ago, but they had to find an opportunity to not stimulate their wives. Crying. That day, director Xie Jin's crying, like Hu Xiao, like a wolf, like a dragon, like a lion roar, all the crying in so many movies he had filmed before, all of which were released, and all released. That day, the autumn wind rose in Hangzhou, and even the West Lake was sobbing.

He did not live in Hangzhou and soon returned to Shanghai. He rarely spoke these days, and his eyes looked straight. Sometimes I also flipped through the book, but it was messy, and there was no word in my eyes.

Suddenly, the telephone ringing was rang. It was called by the alma mater of the hometown of Shangyu. It was said that there was a commemorative event to let him attend, and there was a car to pick it up. He will miss his hometown every life, every time he meets the crisis. Today, the hometown house was summoned again, and he agreed without hesitation.

The commemorative event of Chunhui Middle School only opened the next day. That night he ate some cold meals at the hotel and fell asleep. This is a real hometown. He has been away for a long time, and he only comes back today. He slept towards the left side and never woke up again.

This day was October 18, 2008, 85th birthday, one month and three days.

10

There are four words I wrote in his hometown: "Dongshan Xie's".

It was a day a few years ago. He suddenly came to my house and asked me to write these words. He said that several older generations of calligraphy had been asked, and I hope to increase my writing. Dongshan Xie's? Good birth! I looked at him and thought sorry. After knowing him for so many years, I also knew that he was Shaoxing Shangyu, but he did not associate his surname with the distant and brilliant gate court.

His ancestor was Xie An, the prime minister of the Eastern Jin Dynasty who played the "Battle of the Water" in the fourth century AD. This battle was fighting with his nephew Xie Xuan. Xie Xuan's grandson is Xie Lingyun, the originator of Chinese landscape poems. Xie An originally lived in Housing and Dongshan. He often drank poems with the big calligrapher Wang Xi. His niece Xie Daoyun also married Wang Xizhi's son Wang Ningzhi, and he learned far more than his husband. Xie An was later forced to be an official due to the situation, which gave China an idiom of "Dongshan Reluge".

Because of all this, I wrote the four words "Dongshan Xie's" very respectful. I wrote a lot in a row, and finally picked out one and sent it.

The Xie family has been settled at the foot of Dongshan since the Eastern Jin Dynasty and the Southern Dynasties? Not to mention, Guang's qi has accumulated 1,600 years, which is unusual. Xie Jin was very concerned about this, but did not say it. What he cares about is this mountain, this village, this house, this surname, this anger. But all this is secret, just to say that I would write it, I said it again and again.

I think, with this deep conversion of words, he will go back alone, in the face of a large number of solemn ancestors in the face of a large number of solemn ancestors.

11

At this moment, his home in Shanghai is only A Si. His wife was admitted to the hospital due to a heart problem. A Si was not watched in the door holes all day long as A San. His task for decades is to take bags and shoes for his father. Every morning, Dad went out. He handed the bag to his father and put his dad's slippers. Dad came back in the evening, he took the bag and handed off his slippers.

For several days, Dad's bags and shoes are there. Where did people go? He was a little strange, but was waiting patiently. Suddenly many people came, setting up a row of white flowers at home.

There are more and more white flowers, and the home is full. He looked out from the door holes, and some people were sent. A Si walked in Baihua, and suddenly found that Bai Hua covered her dad's slippers. He bent down, took out his dad's slippers, and kept it beside the door.

This white flower world is alone and a pair of shoes.

Those who can know human nature and life will not be moved by a success, moved by the glory, and will not be moved by a frustration or reputation. The initial movement of the most rare life is the twists and turns that can be carried in the natural form of life, those memories, and the hard -to -face in each day of life, and the hard work and sweat movement For such a kind of mind, tolerance, wisdom, rough, open -minded, even unyielding, unpredictable spirit.

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