The girl who reads a book on the construction site has a dream of studying research

Suffering and music on the construction site

After graduating in 2020, I came to work at the current site.

I think there should be not many girls in the country, and I am one of them.

We are responsible for a municipal work that converts the original saline -alkali land into a park -style coastal protective forest.

I still remember that on the first day of the construction site, I stood in the place where Yanchi was once. At that time, it was Sanfu Tian. We took the GPS to measure the landforms and organize the terrain every day. The place where we looked at it was sandy. The sunset in the evening added a little romance to this vast land, but my heart was full Helpless and disappointed.

Salt pond around the construction site

The night on the construction site was silent, and it was even more desolate. Sometimes when I get back to the room after get off work, I will always think of the stuns of my student days and the ideal of passing away.

When I was a kid, I liked history. I wanted to be a scholar for a time, but the study state was not good in high school. The college entrance examination was not satisfactory.

I studied a college school in Weifang in my hometown. At that time, I didn't know what I could learn, or what I really liked, and obeyed the elders.

At the beginning, I did n’t know about this major. The plants in the book almost did n’t know. The design was a very high -end job in my opinion, which made me instinctively fear.

There is always a thoughts in my heart -to be promoted to the undergraduate, the postgraduate entrance examination, and changed step by step, but I have been immersed in the dissatisfaction of the status quo. There is no actual actions, but if you want to learn but can't learn, it is the most distressed.

In such a state, the promotion must be expected, so the college died in three years.

When I first came, I couldn't do anything. I often worked in my hands. Because of the introverted personality, I did n’t have much communication with my colleagues. I was lonely every day. Our work is also very heavy. From the heat of the heat to the severe cold, others have been on vacation, and we still stick to the construction site at minus ten degrees.

My father called and asked me to upgrade the undergraduate as soon as possible. Then the postgraduate entrance examination or simply went home to work in the factory. The mother always said that there was no hard work at work, so let me stick to it again. Think again and again, I decided to stay. I want to learn more here instead of taking the exam for the exam and work for work.

When I slowly digested the sense of loss in my heart and became more and more understanding this industry, I gradually changed some of my opinions. In the past, I only felt that I did not understand plant maintenance and could not do design work, and the grassroots was bitter and tired. Input and output were often not proportional.

Last winter, our work was initially achieved

But then I looked at the flowers and trees planted by myself. I felt very fulfilling, and now I have some experience in conservation. I also reported a design tutoring class. The teacher always affectionately encouraged not to stick to the status quo, optimistic and boldly looking forward.

The teacher's words reminded me of the story of Mr. Yu Kongjian, a landscape design master in high school. He built the Guangdong -Central Shipyard into the first industrial theme park in China. I suddenly realized that the garden design was a magical job. Smart can bring many surprises and expectations.

Maybe I don't only have the choice of the grassroots level. It is better to try it. Give yourself a few years to accumulate the power, and really participate in the actions that improve the relationship between nature and humanity. Use design to change the world.

Current situation

Reading time on the construction site

In the second half of 2021, I reported to the promotion of correspondence education, and it would be time for 2024 to get a bachelor's degree. After experiencing the baptism of this year's work, I gradually learned maturity and forbearance, and I also understood a lot of things in the collective.

When I was in school, I was always used to "acting alone", and my work inevitable should deal with the kind of people. The colleagues, workers, the person in charge of the design, the government department ... I tried to communicate with them, and I tried to communicate with them. Learn experience, control your negative emotions, and learn to reflect on and break through your thinking limitations.

At this time, the work turned into the maintenance stage. I was not so busy. In addition to leisure, I started to think carefully about my future plans. It may not be possible to stay at the construction site. The material life needs can be guaranteed, but I don't want to live a compromise. I want to choose my own life.

In addition to the corresponding correspondence course, I also bought some postgraduate tutoring books and wanted to play the foundation for some preparations. The tentative goal was the landscape design major in a university in Shanghai. Because I am on -the -job, academic degree, and cross -professional preparation, I know that I have not fully prepared for the victory at all.

Some books are currently learning

Working at the construction site during the day, the outdoor wind is very large, sometimes the book is not spread, and only a complete two -hour learning at night can be learned in the day. But my foundation was too bad. Friends who did not read books and reviewed them together. At first, I didn't know how to plan and prepare, and I could only cross the river by myself.

I re -downloaded the scallops, brushed the vocabulary of the outline of the examination in free time, and also reported the postgraduate training camp, and practiced the difficult sentences and real questions every day. I want to play the foundation of English first, and then gradually increase the time of professional courses.

English learning notes

During the day, I took the book to the construction site. When I was resting, I sat under the tree and read a book. The trees planted by myself now can shield me the wind. I also found a paper box and used as a writing table when I made a note. Although the conditions are a bit rude, after slowly feeling that I have entered the study state at the beginning of this year, these external difficulties are not worth mentioning. The carton used to learn on the construction site

The leaders heard my plans, and some expressed their support, "While you are young, go out and go out." There is also a very interesting thing to say to me: "Learning to be a person to do things is simpler but more important. If you are more important. If you are more important. Choose to go to school for a few years, and after coming out, it is still this state. What is the meaning of the place? "What is the meaning?"

I didn't explain too much. If it was just for the exam, it was really meaningless, but I have gradually clarified my mind and know what I want in the future. My predecessor said that the postgraduate entrance examination has captured a small hill. After climbing, he found that there were more and higher hills. Yes, but at least, I have the ability to try.

After all, I am lucky. My father has always supported me to go to school. Although my mother is not good at talking, she is willing to believe me and encourage me to "try to try it if you have an idea."

Chatting with a few old classmates who work in their hometown chemical plants have also encouraged me. Some of them were admitted to graduate students two years later. Not alone.

At the end

The postgraduate entrance examination is a stage goal of my life, not the last stop for pursuit. Going ashore is undoubtedly my urgent desire, but if the result is unsatisfactory, then I can accept it, and then I must have developed the habit of adhering to learning, and on the basis of hard work in recent years, I can also be able to work hard. Choose your own life more autonomously.

I no longer worry about the decadence in the past, because it can only be futile to regret it blindly. It is only the regrets and the must -have scenery in my life.

As for the future, I want to do a half -room design work. And when my life is very difficult, my family, university teachers, and leaders who take me have given me selfless help. The children improve the living environment and build a small park that suits them.

Sometimes I sit under the tree and read a book, and I think of a sentence written by Ni Cai: the same is the same as a tree. The more the sun is yearning for the sun, the more its roots will extend to the dark ground.

Like the small trees I planted, I am consolidating my foundation and drawing nutrients, and I believe that we will eventually grow into towering trees that are not afraid of wind and rain.

Every day that never dances is a disappointment of life. For the rest of my life, I lived up to Shaohua.

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