The sparkling life behind the empty life -the shallow review of the connotation conveyed in "The Light of Fantasy"

Miyamoto's "The Light of Fantasy" has a poem -like language, with a little Japanese sorrow. The full -text narrative style is just like the habit of the heroine Miko Miko, through the narrative of the heroine's first -person perspective, "say" the story in a "self -speaking" way, the whole article brings it on the whole article. The heroine's strong personal emotions. The memories line intersects with the current line, describing Yumiko's life before and after -one period is the life of ex -husband, and the other is the life without ex -husband. After the ex -husband committed suicide, Yumiko was caught in deep sadness and emptiness. She kept asking herself repeatedly: "You committed suicide, but why?" No one knows how Ayako loves her ex -husband, so she can't ask such a question, she can only digest it by herself.

After remarried, Yoshiko's life seems to be a little better than before, because her husband's income is much higher than the ex -husband, the stepdom is very dependent on herself, and her son is well adapted to life. According to this logical development, Yumiko should have sealed the memory of the ex -husband early, as the Korean woman Ahan said, and take the current life seriously. But on the contrary, this sense of life before and after making Akiko Akiko has formed a disconnection -she can't understand why the ex -husband would commit suicide, and it was clear that the bicycle was stolen, but he stole a stolen one. The new one returned. Although the income was very small, the wife was never left without giving up, gentle and considerate. Why did such a life give up early? In my opinion, Yumiko's ex -husband's suicide is traceable. It was mentioned in Yumiko's memories that Yumiko Yumiko in the young girl had a lot of appearance in the pursuit of the opposite sex. But he dropped out of school early and went out to work, and the job he thought he was determined correctly was a meager salary. After the marriage, there was a problem with her ex -husband's eyes, and the left eye was always squinting. Here also implied that the ex -husband's appearance began to become not as good as before. The bicycle who gritted his teeth was stolen. Although he stole a bicycle of a rich family and compiled countless seemingly normal reasons, this theft has made him realize that his nature has begun to deteriorate. He couldn't support the family by stealing him. In the future, when the boss mentioned that when the ex -husband drank a cup of coffee before he committed suicide, even if Yumiko couldn't understand why his ex -husband's emotional transformation was so big, we can still see -he didn't even have money to drink a cup of coffee. The last straw.

Before the end and her husband confessed everything, Yumiko never considered the spiritual problem of her ex -husband, just as she had never realized her spiritual emptiness. In the text, Yumiko mentioned several descriptions about the sea. There are no fish groups in the sparkling sea surface, but the illusory light and shadow. Here is also the seemingly normal appearance of Yumiko Yumiko. Without the shadow of the ex -husband's suicide, she even felt that her ex -husband's suicide was her fault, because the woman had a spasm that brought misfortune to her family. Coupled with Yosi Miko's life since childhood, she has always lived in guilt. This kind of guilt is multiple. She has no regrets that she sends her grandmother to leave home when she was young. After the ex -husband committed suicide, he did not understand the changes in his ex -husband's spirit, and he did not understand whether his husband really loved his own entanglement after he married again. These complicated emotions made Yumiko's heart into a turbulent waves, constantly stirring her nerves, and rare at a peaceful moment. In addition to the inner heart of the sea water, the colors in the text can also let us see the complex emotions of Yumiko's heart: such as "there are three hotels on the side of the window for the hotels where the men and women live in, the red and blue neon lights Interweave, black -purple light exuding around. At night after the rain, the light color is extra purple, and even the nasty manner dye our home into purple. "The" red "and" blue "books here It is the contrasting color on the color plate, a strong sense of impact, and Yumiko at the time, and the "black purple" implies the suicide of the ex -husband below. Just like the water color covered by the fog and rain at that time, how can it be described? Only the waves of the waves look strange and clustered by the wind, but the whole sea looks very dark, quiet, I was born, I came to the first place, I was born in the first place. I was born. I was born. Seeing this scene "," Black "and" White "are an ultimate contrast. Although the sea is quiet, the strong color contrast still shows Yumiko's anxiety and resistance to future life. Minxiong, Youzi, and Yong accepted a new life in the early morning.

But my friend Miko is good at talking to herself. This self -dispatch has made Yumiko's spirit without emptiness to her ex -husband, otherwise she will also follow her ex -husband's latter. When Ahan smiled, the golden teeth shot light, Li Ye was survived in the stormy waves, the tolerance and kindness of her friend to her, and Minxiong's consideration of her. Everything pulled her back from the spiritual cliff. Let Yumiko realize that although the spirit is empty and lonely, the sparkling life can still give people comfort. The ex -husband didn't want to understand this, so the moment he was lacking, he chose to be light. With the help of others, Yumiko sutured her broken spirit and collage. Although she knew that she was still full of scars and still couldn't let go of her past life, she could at least look up.

It can be seen from the above that although "The Light of Fantasy" uses suicide by her ex -husband to show that even if life seems to be able to live, as long as the spiritual collapse, life will come to an end, but it is shown by the changes in the mood and emotional changes through Yumiko's narrative, although the spirit is on the verge of being on the vergeful With a breath, as long as there is a breath, you can still see the sparkling of the sea. Even if this sparkling is an illusion, it is seductive to enter the unknown nothingness, and people can survive stubbornly. So we can guess properly, maybe grandma has not drowned or was killed. She walked back to her hometown with her own obsession, where she was in the sky; the suicide of the ex -husband was just the liberation of his life, the spiritual spirit, the spiritual The shackles were taken off, and his soul was free from then on; Minxiong did not always attach to the dead ex -wife and deceived Yumiko to come to the island. He just wanted to open a new life, say goodbye to the past, and look forward to the future. This ending seems to be the author who wants to disclose us, but the aftertaste of the ending conforms to the euphemism of Japanese -style, everything is silently moving towards his ending in the end of Yumiko. (Zhang Mengni)

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