Shanghai Girl Jiang Xiaoyan —— Xia Xia

The real light is by no means no dark time,

It's just never concealed by darkness.

The real hero is by no means never having a humble sentiment,

It's just never succumbing to the humble sentiment.

—— Fu Lei

Reject "Demonstration"

Missing the university dream

In 1958, Jiang Xiaoyan was nineteen years old and was young. He would graduate from the first female middle school high school in Shanghai. She wrote a good hand and played the piano. The grade door was excellent. It was not a problem to enter a good university.

However, just two months before graduation, the school made Russian teacher Chai Huimin into "right". Jiang Xiaoyan liked this teacher very much. The school taught her to provide written materials "help her, save it" -collect evidence.

Jiang was thinking about the teacher's teacher, but instead of unveiling the materials, he defended Chai Huimin.

As a result, Chai Huimin was still classified as a rightist.

Jiang Xiaoyan was unwilling to "reveal" from his life and was criticized. There are the following judgments at her graduation appraisal of her high school:

"Unstable position, right tilt of thoughts"

It is also rated as "poor" political morality.

She had a dream of going to college and had to paint from her father at home.

Pretend to be a "dry daughter"

Cerebrate Fu Lei couple's ashes

In the summer of 1966, the rough rain of "Wen GE" came fiercely. From time to time, the bad news of a certain celebrity committed by the Huangpu River, a few people who had Jiang Xiaoyan also embarked on this way. Including the Russian teacher she had defended that year, she also jumped off the building and committed suicide.

In early September, Jiang Xiaoyan was learning the piano at the piano teacher. The daughter of the piano teacher is a student of Shanghai Conservatory of Music. He brought back a message: "The Fu Lei couple committed suicide."

Fu Lei husband and wife

This incredible news made her calm for a long time. She has watched Fu Cong's music performances and reads "John Klisdov" and "Beethoven" translated by Fu Lei. Out of his indignation, she wanted to write a letter to Premier Zhou to reflect Fu Lei's affairs.

In order to understand the situation, Jiang Xiaoyan found Fu Lei's home with the big posters on the street, but learned from Fu Lei's babysitter Zhou Juzheng during his lifetime.

Because of Fu Lei's two sons, Fu Congyuan was in the United States, and Fu Min worked in Beijing. The ashes can only be led by loved ones, not to mention that at this time, everyone is afraid that it has a relationship with the "black five" of "self -reliance".

Jiang Xiaoyan couldn't sleep at night, and finally decided to come forward -impersonating Fu Lei to raise the ashes.

The next day, Jiang Xiaoyan wore a large mask and only revealed a pair of clear eyes. He came to the cremation field of Xibaoxing Road, Shanghai.

It was not possible to follow the situation, but Jiang Xiaoyan's affection made the staff moved the heart. However, she had no money to buy the ashes. Although Jiang Xiaoyan was 27 years old, she had no job because of her high school graduation comment.

As a result, Jiang Xiaoyan tried to find Fu Lei's inner brother Zhu Renxiu.

Jiang Xiaoyan came to Zhu's house wearing a large mask. Zhu Renxiu asked her surname, Jiang Xiaoyan said that her surname was "high". Zhu Renxiu asked her where she lived, and Jiang Xiaoyan refused to say. When Zhu Renxiu refused to say her, she refused to say that she was a little uneasy, so she handed the money to the nephew Zhang Tingyu, and asked Zhang to accompany the "Gao Girl" to buy the ashes.

After buying the ashes, after receiving and installing the ashes of the Fu Lei and his wife, the "Girl" brought the ashes back to his home and kept it for the time being.

After a few days, Jiang Xiaoyan and Zhang Tingyu sent the ashes to Shanghai Yong'an Cemetery together to go through the formalities. Considering that Fu Lei's name was too "eye -catching", the "Gao Girl" learned from Zhu Renxiu that Fu Lei's original name Fu Nu'an, he signed "Fu Nu'an" on the ashes.

After the process of handling this, she immediately wrote "Little Min asked for a letter", hoping that the Prime Minister's management situation was not signed for safety.

Ten months later, on the evening of June 21, 1967, Jiang Xiaoyan was still arrested, and three strange men brought her to the car.

It turned out that the letter that was named Fu Lei was intercepted without sending Shanghai, and it was traced as a "big case". Jiang Xiaoyan was regarded as "current anti -GE life" suspects who were detained in Shanghai Zhengtai Rubber Factory for interrogation.

During the interrogation, Jiang Xiaoyan said that he had never seen Fu Lei and asked the interviewer to torture his conscience with an extremely simple tone: "Collecting ashes for others and burial.

Subsequently, she listed the help of her father's help through the help of the church to buy funerals for neighbors who had no money to buy a coffin. Because his father was a devout Christian, he was only influenced by his father, so he could not talk about Fu Lei's ashes.

These simple reasons, plus Jiang Xiaoyan did not work, did not go to the society, let her escape.

Many years later, Jiang Xiaoyan herself thought that she was very lucky.

Because the person who interrogates her is not a cultural person, but the worker master in the factory. Jiang Xiaoyan knows that the underlying workers in China have always had loyal and kind virtues. If they are replaced by people who have read books, Jiang Xiaoyan said: "It is likely that this person (himself) may no longer exist today ... But a group of cultural and unwilling people's mouths. "

After the release of the release, Jiang Xiaoyan replaced everything to the unknown father. Her father didn't blame anything, only to say that she did it right.

The father was like her and could not go out to work. During the War of Resistance Against Japan, he participated in the Kuomintang army. Now he has become a person with historical problems. He has to stay at home to paint.

Although this incident has passed, the huge fear shrouded Jiang Xiaoyan's life.

As long as the horn sound of the car came downstairs, her heart would be brave, for fear of catching her. From time to time, the household registration police glanced at it, and it was difficult to sleep all night.

The mental pressure was hundreds of pounds, and she was afraid that she would collapse one day. In the end, she went to the factory to find the workers who asked her that year, and told that she could not help over the past few years. The man promised her again, "I promised you, not to reflect the police station in you ..."

In 1972, Jiang Xiaoyan's father died, no one in his family worked, and had no life. Jiang Xiaoyan was arranged to the bottom production team of the society. At this time, 34 years old.

Fifteen years before the 19 -year -old, she had been sleeping at home for fifteen years. Jiang Xiaoyan later said: Except for Fu Lei, she had nothing to do.

In April 1979, the dim era had gone away. Mr. Fu Cong's son Fu Cong returned to China. When he learned that his parents' ashes were still retained, he couldn't help but move, so he asked his brother Fu Min to ask about this. I was unfamiliar with a kind person, but Jiang Xiaoyan was extremely low -key, and Fu Min was unable to do so.

The first interviewer who saw himself was estimated to be Mr. Ye Yonglie.

After the memorial service in 1979, Fu Cong held the ashes in his hand, and Fu Min held his statue and went to the cemetery

Mr. Ye Yonglie mentioned in his writing that Jiang Xiaoyan refused to interview and was unwilling to talk about the matter of the year. He felt that a trivial matter was worth mentioning.

After repeated, Jiang Xiaoyan agreed to talk about it, but there was a request for the premise that she said to Ye Yonglie: "My heart is transparent, and I can't tolerate half of the sand ... Please don't disclose my name, I am fading in vanity! "

As a result, the public was able to know some dusty old things. Since then, Ye Yonglie and Jiang Xiaoyan have become good friends and have kept contact with their promises.

Since Fu Lei's memorial service, the Fu family has been looking for Jiang Xiaoyan, and always wants to find a chance to repay her.

In October 1997, the Fu Min and his wife came to Shanghai. Through the relationship between Mr. Ye Yonglie, he finally saw the benefactor Jiang Xiaoyan. Fu Min proposed a group photo, but was rejected by Jiang Xiaoyan.

Ye Yonglie said: "She never let me take pictures. In these years, her only request to promise me is to allow her name to disclose her name -Jiang Xiaoyan."

For the gratitude of the Fu family, Jiang Xiaoyan retreated to the three houses, and it was indifferent, but pushed it all. He only accepted a concert ticket sent by Fu Cong to her only out of politeness. At the end of the concert, she left silently.

Jiang Xiaoyan's last time he made a detailed authentic reason why he preserved Fu Lei's ashes was a letter published in "Book House" in 1998. Among them, it was a word that talked about the inner feelings, which was respectful:

I remember that I have never wrote anything to the Fu family, which is unnecessary. Since I can appeal when they are overwhelming, of course, they can also turn a blind eye to their family voices today, which is often two aspects of one thing.

Look at the ever -changing world! If you cannot solve the problem of the ownership of the soul, then the high name and the big fortune will be empty!

What is gratifying is that in the autumn of 1985, Jiang Xiaoyan finally fulfilled the university dream.

At that time, she was 46 years old, but she was still bloody and applied for the undergraduate class of the Chinese Department of Shanghai Second Education Institute. Two years later, she got an undergraduate diploma she should have obtained in 1962. I work in the editor -in -chief of the headquarters of Shanghai Television University and serves as a deputy editor of the newspaper. Later, he was transferred to the School of Fine Arts of Shanghai University as a teacher until he retired in 1994.

Looking back at life, I was sleepy at home at the age of 19. At the age of thirty -four, I participated in the work at the age of 34. It was nearly 50 years later than others. So she was not married for life.

Jiang Xiaoyan said: "For many years, my efforts, my struggle is really hard to say."

But she still repeatedly emphasized that she did not regret everything she did, because a person's inner peace was not exchanged by any fame and fortune.

Many years later, when talking about the extraordinary move of that year, Jiang Xiaoyan evaluated himself---

A grassman that can't solve the problem of eating by himself, but he wants to shout for others' grievances!

As for the little people who wrote to the Prime Minister, she laughed at herself: "I'm naive, very simple, right!"

Human nature has one good, one or two sides, but the bad side has never been exposed to an era in this way-

Intellectuals are pale blood loss, literati and bones disappear, and bloody youths are crazy.

A weak woman who has no power of chickens, but with a slight light, illuminates the nation's conscience, and expresses the justice of the world.

Today, this brave woman lives alone in the outskirts of Shanghai, painting, calligraphy in time, calligraphy, or chanting poetry, and playing music, living a bland life with the world.

She has a life that pursues her life:

Must be indifferent, frustrated.

Out of hand, the group is kind

This article is transferred from: Walking with the wind, watching everywhere, wz on earth

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