When a musician decides to look directly at death

This weekend, we want to share the life opinions of a patient. Diseases are one of the oldest propositions of human beings. Sometimes people can be cured, and sometimes the disease will become long, leaving a trace of being wiped out on people. When a person has to coexist with the disease for a long time, how would he survive? In the face of disease, what kind of life choice can a person make?

In the world of classical music, diseases often become the source of composers. Interestingly, music often brings the opposite of the disease. When Beethoven wrote "Second Symphony", he just experienced extremely depression and suicide crisis, but his melody stayed in music was completely positive and optimistic. A large number of happy, happy, and carefree music works were born when they encountered great dilemma. Perhaps a person is in a very difficult dilemma, the only way out is what he loves the most in the world, such as music.

The next presentation is a way out in the music. Abado's old age is a kind of life sample. Stomach cancer makes him a patient who needs to be in the health crisis for life, but in a long journey wrapped in the disease, because of the existence of music, he found a calm to peace. The way out, frankly accepted his death. The story that happened to him proves that there are many sorrows and sorrows on the world, but music can turn it into all things.

I hope this story can bring you some inspiration on the weekend. happy weekend!

Text ｜ Chafei

The conductor Abado always studied the score in the basement. There is no piano or other instruments in this room. The work table is spread on the work table. The conductor builds the melody in the brain with his own memory, and then uses a pencil to mark the details on the score to rehearse his command. In other words, in this room, Abado listened to music silently.

This is the unique habit of Abado in his later years. In the last 14 years of life, his music keywords seemed to be Silence. When the music is silent, what does Abado go through?

The conductor Claudio Abbado has created countless music achievements in his life. If his life is written as a score, the movement will be filled with strong play and treble. He has been in the world's top band -Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra, Chicago Symphony Orchestra, London Symphony Orchestra -until the collapse of the Berlin Wall, as the successor of Karajan, he became the Berlin Philharmonic Orchestra in the most era of the era. Common command. However, his life is also ending like composition. He is getting stronger, weaker, and so on, until the last weakness marks, walking towards the final silence.

The weakness of life occurred in 2000. At the age of 67, he is at the peak of his career. He is the permanent commander of Berlin's Philharmonic. A star on the header dares to open up innovative tracks and series of theme projects. At the concert, vitality is full of vitality. However, it was also from the spring that Abbado seemed to be embarrassed than once, and the action range became smaller and smaller. Later, he disappeared in the public vision for several months, and Abado, who appeared again, announced that he was diagnosed with gastric cancer and removed a large number of digestive organs. His treatment was successful, and cancer cells did not spread, but after surgery, his weight dropped by 17 kg, and people became weak. He obviously couldn't get back a state of never getting sick. Next, what would he like to survive?

Major diseases are often a long -term problem, bringing long pain, repeated frustrations, and long -term difficulties that can not be relieved. How will the disease change a person, and how should people face the disease? In particular, when musicians encounter diseases, how will the concert affect their life choices?

Abado during the Berlin Philharmonic period

In fact, the disease has left its own mark in music very early. When Beethoven's "Piano Sonata No. 31 (OP110)" recorded his feelings of healing from severe jaundice. Bernstein found that the "hesitant and irregular auction" written at the beginning of "Ninth Symphony" originated from the heart of the composer. The shortness of breathing caused by lung disease can also affect the composition habit. Chopin and Schubert have breathing problems. Therefore, their melody is always longer and longer, like a compensation for reality breathing. Sonberg wrote his health crisis into a trio of string. "Left -Hand Piano Concerto" created by Raive is different from his previous works. After analyzing the physical acoustic analysis of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, this is a proof of the composer's cerebral lesions after the car accident.

This time, the disease fell on a conductor. According to the doctor's order, he should reduce the workload and spend more time to sleep, rest, and accompany his family. To some extent, Abado did the same. Before the diagnosis of cancer, he had announced that he would no longer renew his contract work after the contract expired. He likes walking, skiing, climbing mountains, and loves plants. Everywhere he lives, he leaves "Abado's Garden". However, when walking, he will think of the score in his mind. When trimming the leaves and leaves of the garden, the melody will repeatedly rehearse in my heart.

The disease let him start thinking about survival, and instinctively let him continue to taste the music. In the process, Abado realized a wonderful commonality -the whole process of people crying from a crying to silence and death was life. The notes passed away from the moment, and the sound gradually became silent, forming music. Both life and music must face silence. What is the meaning of this process? Young Abado

This problem is one of the core propositions of classical music. Beethoven's late works are repeatedly handling this theme before the end of this theme. And Mahler and Brookina wrote the question directly into their own comments. In the letter written to friends, he bluntly stated that his work was a question on "the great propositions": Why do people live? Why suffering? ... What should I understand the cruelty and maliciousness of God when making Creation? Does the meaning of life be revealed only by death? In the final analysis, what is alive?

Abado in his later years began to read Mahler's works over and over again, and repeatedly explained Brookina's interpretation. He did not write the specific answer, but he left his research method -listening to silence.

Silent is part of Abado's personality background. When he was a child, he climbed the mountain with his grandfather. The old man always silent. Later, he often said that it was this silent journey taught him to "listen to silence" and "silence is also a dialogue." After adulthood, Abado met modern composer Louisi Nono. They are consistent on many issues, and this friendship is "silent conversation that does not require words at all." There are many mute fragments that are getting silent in Nuo's old age musical "Prometheus". Only Abbado accurately understand its meaning. "People do not know why there is mute. People are in essence. Its meaning. "

After getting sick, silentness becomes more important to Abado. The big conductors always have lively life, interviews, speeches, and endless social interactions, but he always walks alone in the mountains, and prefers to stay in the garden to coexist with plants. "Listening is very rare, it is difficult to do, because there are always other ideas, other noise, other music, and other ideas. When people listen to others, they always love to find their own existence with others."

The reporter asked him about the skills of music. His answer was to go to the forest to take a walk, repay the melody in his brain, and "listen to the sound of snow."

"Do you mean the sound of stepping on the snow?"

"No, you can hear the snow even if you stand on the balcony. Of course, it is indeed extremely subtle."

That's right, Abbado can hear the sound of snow. He can also hear the breeze in the mountains, the breath of the audience, and the slight vibration of the instrument. Many minimal voices are a real existence to him. The "extremely weak" symbol marked on the music score indicates that music will gradually advance to "silent". For Abado, "this silence can be accurately felt."

He told another conductor Simon Latt, "My illness is scary, but the results are not necessarily bad. I have obtained the ability to listen to my heart, as if I used my stomach to exchange it. A pair of endogenous ears. "

Abbado in his later years brought "silent" into the performance. This is also the answer he found in his last time.

After leaving the Berlin Philharmonic Orchestra, Abbado formed a free new orchestra, the Rushacen Picks Orchestra. In the summer of 2003, he took the new orchestra at the Luscerne Music Festival for the first time. This orchestra gathered the best group of musicians at the time. In 2009, the Lucern Music Festival, Abado conducted the orchestra to perform Male's "Ninth Symphony". At that year, he was 76 years old, and his disease and aging left specific traces on him. His hair was pale, the whole person was thin, and he was no longer as free as he was when he was young. This song is also one of the most important works of Males. At the end of the fourth movement, the composer commented on the performance "End like death." At the end of the fourth movement, Abbado's instructions on the orchestra only had a gentle gesture. Until the last five minutes, he almost rely on his expression to make instructions. His command became a specific personal infectious power, gradually Enter quiet.

At the end of the song, from the weaker to the silent long, everyone present -musicians, audiences, and conductors -such as being hypnotized, all immersed in this quiet. Abado closed his eyes and held his command stick. At the age of seven, Abado listened to a symphony concert for the first time under the leadership of his family. He described it as "a magic night" in his diary that day, and what he was most fascinated was the conductor of the commander. "Magic Mags of Music" in the hand. Nearly 70 years later, he boarded his magic. After two minutes, the audience returned to reality and reported to lasting applause.

"I think of the last sentence of the ninth symphony of Mahler, before the end -the moment before the death ... ... The music circulates in the space and is silent." Abado said.

Abado, immersed in the quiet

On August 26, 2013, Abado prevented the concert for the last time. It was in the summer of the Russen Music Festival. Both of them were not completed when the composer died. After the music ended, Abado "fixed it on the podium like a stone." Later, he told the musicians privately, "I couldn't move anymore at that time." Since then, he never stood on the podium again. Five months later, Abbado died. At the last moment of life, it was family, friends, and music that accompanied him. After getting the news about the musicians, the last time he played Schubert's music at his funeral. According to his family's description, Abado's last life was "calm". When he died, he also talked to the family. There was tears in the conversation and a smile.

As he wished, Abado got silent, a real Silence. He has the calmness of life, and his death has also received a tranquility. The Scarla Opera House held a farewell concert for him. At 6 o'clock on the evening of the concert, there was no one over the audience of the Scarla Opera House, and the door was open. Ballenburm led the orchestra to perform the "funeral" of Beethoven's "Heroes Symphony". Nearly 10,000 people stood outside the theater spontaneously. On the square, listen to the music from the square horn. From the weakened song, when the crowd was rotated, and when Abador lived, the end of the end of the song was quiet, and the applause and applause of music dedicated to music again were endless.

This is the last method of a conductor. Abado lived in silence and brought silence into music. British conductor Daniel Hardin was once Abado's assistant. "In the silence after music, I can always think of him."

Abado's private garden in Sardinia is open to the public after his death. This is a place left to the world to listen to silence. Today, Abado is buried in the Fisttar Valley in Switzerland, but only those who can resist lonely can find him last, because his cemetery has almost no modern transportation to reach. Climbing mountains, like Abado's favorite during his lifetime, stroll up on a long mountain road.

In fact, he was originally buried in Bologna, and later his family moved his tomb to the church cemetery in the mountains. This is the favorite place for Abbado during his lifetime. He is studying, walking here, studying music scores, and listening to music in silence. Even if he arrived in this isolated valley, found a small church cemetery, and found that Abado still needed the silent concentration. His tombstone is not decorated, no titles, only a gray marble slab, which says a name: Claudio Abbado.

Abado's tombstone

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