Yang Yan: No one in life is easier than anyone else, and who is better than anyone else

Author: Ciyu

The difficulty is the time of practice.

Mr. Yang Yan wrote in "Going to Life":

"In this world of materialism, life is really bitter enough."

She had worried about Chai Mi oil and salt, and was tired of making a living.

He was slandered and criticized in the turmoil, and was in danger.

I used to experience life and death forever, and I was alone, and there was a loneliness.

But as she said, life is like a spice, the more thinner the mings, the more fragrant the fragrance.

Yang Yan also used to wash himself and sublimate himself in pain again and again.

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Boiling is to endure the trap of material. The famous minister of the Tang Dynasty wrote an eternal strange text "Qianben Grass", which described "money" properly:

"Money, sweet taste, hot, poisonous. It can be stationed, colorful and lingering.

In ancient times, two texts were comparable to the Five Moon Shen. Today, a piece of paper is overwhelmed by the people in the world.

There are no pure land in the world, and everyone has worried about a few broken silver and running like an ants for their livelihoods.

In 1938, the situation was turbulent and chaotic, and Yang Yan took her daughter back to Shanghai's Qian family.

Because her residence was small, she had to squeeze up and down with Qian's house.

After Qian Zhongshu went to the Southwest United University, the burden of supporting his family was pressed on Yang Yan's shoulders.

In order to make money, she taught the lady of the rich merchant. She often went out early in the morning and went home until dinner.

However, the salary of water, life is still stretched.

Later, Yang Yan Sanzi moved to a small loft.

Regardless of whether it is food and cooking, or sweeping the floor and washing clothes, all the housework will take over.

She was often dyed with a flower face, or she was smoked with tears, or was bored by the oil, or cut her fingers when cutting vegetables.

Because she had no money to buy new clothes, she borrowed a sewing machine and made clothes for her husband and daughter one by one.

The house was small, and in the summer, she was like a steamer, but she had no complaints.

Faced with such a poor situation, Yang Yan said calmly:

This taste is worth tasting, because of worrying about breeding wisdom.

The days are stormy, and we inevitably have to eat the suffering of life and be tired of being burdened.

Eating and wearing expenses, car loan mortgages, like the mountains on the shoulders, making us difficult to walk, and it is difficult to breathe for a while.

We have to make every penny in the dust, because it is the confidence of life.

We began to look down on reality and do a nasty job. After all, there are so many choices in life.

Life is Shura.

We have to fight with destiny and fight the poor.

02

Boiling is torture to torture. Amster in the Netherlands has an ancient temple.

There is a word engraved on the monument in the courtyard: it has become a fact, so it can only be.

All the misfortunes performed by fate, Yang Yan accepted it with a calm posture.

She was struggled by the "cattle ghost snake god" and was roughly shaved into yin and yang head.

At the age of sixty, she was decentralized to work hard and was responsible for the gardens and filled toilets.

Many people can't stand such spiritual destruction.

Yang Yan used all this to read and read.

When she was arranged to dig wells, she took off her shoes and socks and shoved the mud that was flowing around. On the day of the well, Yang Yan also deliberately made a bottle of shochu to celebrate the banquet for everyone.

When she was arranged to wash the toilet, she used those hands with a pen to wipe the toilet with a new look. She secretly had time to read books without looking down at her head.

Every day she is busy, sitting on the pony, translating Spanish, while translating, and finally completing the translation of eight volumes of "Don Quixote".

The unbreakable spiritual world she built made her avoid rumors and calmly.

Wang Zengqi has also been decentralized to the countryside and accepts labor transformation.

The task of being assigned every day is to start with pigpen, pig dung, and back food. Those who participate in labor together are exhausted, but Wang Zengqi entertains and entertains.

He will secretly touch the fish and stew a pot of fish soup.

When you are bored, you throw the potatoes into the hood and eat it.

After the transformation, everyone else was sick, only he was shaking.

As Yang Yan said, everyone will have an extremely difficult time, the pressure of life, the frustration of work, the pressure of academic studies, and love.

Life is full of holes, and everyone's life will rise and encounter thorns.

But it is difficult to practice.

There is a sunshine in my heart, and everything is the scenery, no hope.

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Boiling is the loneliness of the soul. The protagonist of "Living" is Fortune, and he is saying goodbye throughout his life.

His son Youqing was drew dry when he donated blood and died on the spot;

Daughter Feng Xia died of dystocia.

The sadness of the bereavement and daughter eventually crushed the wife's family.

The cruelty of fate was more than that. After a few years, he took the son -in -law Erxi and the grandson's bitter root from him.

Fugui lost all relatives and all reliance.

In the end, he saved money to buy a veteran who was slaughtered.

He was alone, holding the old cow, and sang a bright song on Tian Yan.

Yu Hua wrote in the preface of "Alive":

People live to live, not to live for anything other than alive.

In this life, it is a process of constant loss.

But even a person, he has to stand up to the wind and rain and strive to move forward.

For Yang Yan, her daughter Qian Yan and her husband Qian Zhongshu were her comfort.

The three of them had no demands, no disputes with others, and only gathered together and stayed together. No matter how big the difficulties, the family should bear the difficulties, and the difficulties will not be difficult.

A happy point, the three people sharing together will also become very happy.

But they lost their scattered after all.

In the early spring of 1997, Qian Yan died; at the end of 1998, Qian Zhongshu died.

Do not stay in the past, the deceased cannot be chased.

Watching the death of the two relatives, Yang Yan held back the pain of broken intestines:

I have to stay in the world, clean the scene, and do my best.

In her later years, she translated "Figo" in Plato's "Dialogue", turning her full thoughts into the motivation of work.

She also paid special attention to her body. In addition to her diet and the regular life, she insisted on taking 7000 steps at home every day to comfort her loved ones with a healthy body.

This is a world that is good at separation. We have gone to the world, and there are life and death.

When we were young, we continued to meet and were a group of people.

Going forward, the people around him gradually left.

Loneliness is the background of life after all.

No matter who it is, you can only accompany for a long journey, and the rest of the journey will have to go alone.

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There is a classic dialogue in French writer Bo Wawa:

"Do you really love life?"

"Yes, I love life."

"You have never had pain?"

"A few times. But the pain itself is also life."

Life is alive, everyone is crushing in suffering.

Some people sink to complain in the pain, but some people make the suffering of life like Yang Yan into a poem.

Like a praise, hold a lamp for yourself, and get out of the dark tunnel after another.

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